Cherubix

2007-01-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

my last post bout leaving?
well.. i understand dat a few ppl have actually misunderstood dat i wasnt gonna blog for some time due to some reasons.. but it's actually supposed to be.. i'm leaving as in.. dun ask me out.. i wouldnt go out kinda i'm leaving.. leaving this society everyone's living in.. that's wad i actually meant.. tot i'll come clarify things a lil.. yep.. well.. this is still my blog.. i'll still maintain it.. but not as often.. i'll be back to join my friends.. some day.. someday when i have recovered from my illnesses.. or at least made significant improvement.. when i win myself over.. prob den i'll try to win other ppl over.. at de current moment.. i think i'm better off being alone.. dats how i sincerely feel.. i still love the ppl hu are sincere to me.. thou few.. but i can regconise them and i love them still.. as for the rest.. hu are just putting up a nice show.. i guess u knw hu u are.. it aint nice to spell things out.. this thing i'm suffering from has put me in a new light of life.. i believe it's a double edged sword.. but i'll live with it.. or even better still overcome it.. well.. guess i've said alot more den i'm supposed to.. anywayz.. for ppl hu are wondering.. i'm doing pretty well for my studies.. passing all my mods cept 1 and even scoring distinction for 1.. more to sae.. next time =)

2006-12-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

i'm going awae... duno when i'll come back.. dun ask me when i'll be back.. i duno.. maybe 3 daes... maybe 3 years.. i duno.. dats all i've to sae.. goodbye..

2006-12-29T15:16:00.000+08:00

i knw i haven been blogging for sometime.. just kept procrastinating.. well.. past few weeks was spent erm.. i cant quite rem.. but let's see.. bestie came back from bkk.. had a steamboat liquor party at my place.. my bestie enjoys talkin not onli to me but my mom! hahaha! dey share de same kinda frends.. hahaha.. met up with bestie ytd to have lunch.. talk somemore.. we love talkin.. went to buy clothes.. hahaha.. now here i m blogging while waitin for my bestie to cue me to get out of house.. haha.. i didnt really felt like blogging.. but i just had some stuff i had to write dem out..

i was watching a show ytd and dere was this intro on this new threatre performance in taiwan.. it's called shui hu zhuan.. or wad ppl call de water margin.. if u've read de original u'll knw it's bout 108 men and ya.. the things bout men.. it's quite a good storyline.. but this threatre performance is bout 9 different or was it 8.. men.. in modern day society.. i'm really quite interested in the show if u ask me.. and if i have the means i'll fly over and watch the show.. so wad happened was i got so interested in the show i went to find out the taiwan's sistic site (it's not called sistic if u're takin wad i sae as it is -.-) checked out the play and at the same time browsed thru the other plays they have.. if u guys still rem.. i mentioned about a book i had read or.. had been reading.. The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho.. it's a really inspiring book.. really good.. i recommend everyone to read it unless of cuz u're too shallow to read a book.. and guess wad.. in taiwan.. they have a play based on that book.. maktub.. dun ask me wads dat.. read de book and u'll knw.. i sooooo wanna see dat play too.. den i went to check sistic site.. the one.. WE have.. den i realise we do not have much threatreworks and those dat are ard dun really interest me that much.. so.. is it just me? or is it the art scene in singapore? ok.. i'm done complainin.. and i still wanna watch the 2 plays in taiwan badly.. hahahha... okie.. i've got my cue.. leaving home already.. gotta meet up with my cousins this evening then if time permits would proceed to devilsbar as ken is back.. dat is if time permits..

2006-12-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

friday was spent at home doing facial drinking tea and watching tv... accompanied with pizza... haha..

sat i went to work for my aunt at vivo city... de whole dae was spent at vivo with lil joel.. such a cute lil boi he is...

sunday met up with lynn... went vivo city.. had dinner at sushi tei... was so so so full... after dinner we walked around lookin for xmas pressie.. i found something i wanted to get for bestie but dey didnt have it at dat outlet.. prob gonna try another outlet or something.. after dat we went to st james power station - dragonfly.. i dont really fancy live band but de show was not too bad.. quite entertainin with eye candies... dat excludes sylvester sim.. HAHA.. we sat around and watched a show and left around 12mn.. went down to clarke quay after dat... met up with lynn's friend benny.. a nice chap.. went to some place called geographer.. they have a thai live band dere.. and de singer is cute.. haha.. de utt kinda thai cuteness... sat around listened to music and played games all nite till they close at 5am... saw clinic c and de hed kandi bar as i was leaving clarke quay.. gonna try those 2 sometime.. interested, ms b??? =) reached home at around 5.30 bathed and while waiting for my hair to dry read my new book the alchemist.. a very nice book i would sae.. good recommendation by my therapist.. really inspiring... after this gonna read the little prince.. many have said it's boring and hard to interpret.. but still gonna try reading it..

woke up at ard 12 noon todae... switched on my pc and was talkin on msn halfway when my monitor went haywired.. it just gave way... was just thinkin of de money i have to spend on getting a new monitor when rodrick offered to gimme his brand new nv used b4 monitor lyin at some corner of his house.. haha.. lucky me.. hehe.. now i can save up my money to get something else.. haha! gonna go collect the monitor from him tml.. and gonna buy py's xmas present tml.. gonna get bestie's present on wed after my appt with my doc in de morning.. and bestie's coming back tml midnight! weeeeeee... hope she had a great time over in thailand.. i miss u!!!! =D shall we go try live band de next time? thou i dun understand thai.. de thai songs didnt sound too bad.. dey sounded quite nice in fact... shall we bring mun along so she can interpret the song and probably communicate with de cute thai singer? HAHAHA! lookin forward to bestie being back! hehe!

2006-12-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

try this ... quite cool.. haha

2006-12-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

saw my therapist on tues... she saes i should exercise to give out energy or something.. cant rem wad she said exactly.. but something along that line.. so todae.. for de 1st time in many years i exercised.. for approximately an hour.. gonna exercise for ard half an hour everydae from todae onwards.. lets see if i can stick to it.. and i'm oso gonna start something.. not gonna tell u guys wad.. will let everyone knw if i succeed.. haha!

this morning i met ms b for bbf! i had bbf and she had hotcakes with sausage.. did breakfast @ mac @ je...passed her de map and de card with de massage place address on it.. she's already on de plane or probably have reached thailand already.. will onli be back on tues next wk.. will miss her loads.. after we parted ways at je.. i went to bugis.. wanted to borrow a book from de lee kong jian reference library.. turned out de book was not for loan.. so sad aint it? doh.. so i went back to bugis junction.. walked around abit.. went to icon@bugis.. walked de whole of icon.. quite an interesting place selling interesting stuff.. dere's this shop dat sells bath and body works stuff.. really nice.. when i came out of icon it was already rainin... went back to bugis junction walked around lookin for xmas pressie.. wanted to go over to bugis village but de rain was getting so heavy i couldnt go over.. so i bought a mag and went to mos.. bought a cup of iced milk tea and sat dere reading mag while it poured outside.. left bugis ard 4+ took de train back.. and on the train i saw elaine! she's back from aussie with her other half lennie.. i tot they'll onli be back ard xmas time.. but she's back already.. such a coincidence.. i'm de 1st familiar face she's seen since she's back.. how nice.. haha.. chatted for awhile and she alighted with lennie.. continued de journey home... met mommy @ lot 1.. went shopping for some grocery.. bought cucumber for facial! haha.. den bought some facial stuff and came back.. tml will be spent @ home clearing up my backlog of work and doing some facial + tea relaxing kinda stuff...

came home and logged on msn.. pk saes he has de book the little prince.. and he's gonna go find it for me! yippee!!! hehehe.. if he finds it den i can save my money up and just buy the alchemist.. hehe.. so nice.. kakaka

i've thought over it hard and long.. i've decided to let go of all the craps that i've been true and be true to myself.. i muz learn to love myself more den anyone else and at de same time love others.. i'm not gonna subject myself to bad treatment anymore.. i'm not gonna let de ppl hu love me down.. =) to those ppl.. especially my family and ms b.. i dun wanna let u guys down anymore.. i'm gonna learn to stand up for myself and love myself just de way u wan me to..

-ms b i'm missing u already! have fun with py! hehe-

2006-12-14T19:17:00.000+08:00

seven things that scare me

cockroaches (+ all insects including butterflies)
failing in life
horror shows
losing my loved ones (dat includes u ms b)
being fat (which i think i am -.-)
being ugly (i m here too.. haha)
being alone (but i think i no longer am scared of this..)

seven things i like the most

shopping
travelling
tea (green, english breakfast, earl grey and floral)
anime, comics
dancing (latin american, disco)
singing
ms b is not a thing... but i like her =D

seven important things in my room

the eyeless pig on my bed.. haha!
medicine
bible
bed
pic of me and bestie!
cash.. i have quite some in my room
books??? hahahaha

seven random facts about me

i love to read good books
i love animes like anything
i like cute things
i have something for shiny gadgets
lots of girls annoys me
i'm bitchy i bitch with my bestie alot.. haha!
i like pants but i look good in skirts.. o_O?
1 extra 1: I HATE STUPID PPL! brainless shits

seven things i plan to do before i die

learn more languages and cultures
travel around the world
marry a good & rich man that loves me.. HAHA!
take up knitting, dancing, yoga, etc.. lol!!!
start up a business
get a masters degree if possible a phd =\
do charity work in places like africa (that is if i dun fall sick there 1st!)

seven things i can do

type really fast
bitch bout ppl.. especially stupid & useless ones
cook! or bake...
sms and talk at de same time (something my bestie cant do.. hehe)
sing for long hours and lose my voice later
talk on de phone for a long period of time (think of my occupation in de past)
drink lots of wine and not get drunk.. (am i supposed to be proud of this??? haha!)

seven things i cant do

maths! (something my bestie is good at!)
act cute and innocent
contain my anger
go on a diet (i love food!)
draw a circle with 1 hand and a triangle with another
read music notes
act as if i like someone i dislike

seven things i say the most

dumb
stupid
brainless
idiotic
wa lao
hahahaha
omg

seven celeb crushes (listed below are ppl i think are cute.. i dun have crushes on dem la!)

orlando bloom
jesse mc cartney
zheng yuan chang
guo pin chao
he jun xiang
steven gerrard
xabi alonso

you get the point.. dey are all boyish and cute.. i said i like cute things wad...

seven people who have to do this

anyone's who interested.. do already tell me so dat i can see =)

this is specially done for my bestie ms b who is now on her way to thailand with her darling as requested by her.. =)

2006-12-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

went out with ms b and py just now.. met at ard 3.30 at cityhall.. den we went to marina square and reserved a table for 3 at dian xiao er... went starbucks.. sat down drank some chocolate and talked alot.. my bestie passed me my pressie she got for me.. it's a really pretty butterfly watch dat changes in color.. hahaha.. really pretty ok???? went back raffles city to collect the lady's card den went back to marina square for dinner.. we were 50 mins late for our reservation but de nice lady still let us have de seat immediately.. we ordered duck.. toufu.. vege.. dong po rou... nice and full dinner.. and i had loads of peanuts.. haha! talked bout having kids... den we left and went to harry's @ esplanade.. bestie had a harry's 1922 was it? and i had a chardonnay.. 3 of us were kinda bored so we started telling ghost stories.. kinda freaky and bestie scared me alot of times.. -.- hahahaha.. she just suddenly screams and scare me.. hahaha.. left at ard 11??? took a cab home... really happy todae.. anytime spent with de both of dem is happy dae.. beats spending time with my other frends anydae.. sad but true.. i feel most at ease with dem... thank you ms b for giving me a wonderful bdae celebration =) i love u =)

2006-12-08T19:47:00.000+08:00

was supposed to go out with 2 guys todae.. i shall not mention hu dey are.. dey both promised me at 1st.. den later on 1 said he had work and drinking with boss de other i guess.. plain forgotten.. well i knw work and boss is more impt... i have nothing to sae.. but it really sets me thinkin.. anywayz we were supposed to meet to have dinner to celebrate my 21st bdae.. really.. this 21st bdae of mine has shown me how much i really meant to all my friends.. de onli person hu really cared bout how i feel is my bestie.. she's de onli 1 dat remembered.. dat asked me bout celebration and all.. wad bout my other frends? those dat i care about? those dat i alwayz rem their bdae and buy dem gifts and all.. all dey did was msg me happy birthdae.. some didnt even msg me happy birthdae.. not sae i gey gao... but it really shows how much i mean to dem... i really feel hurt.. b4 my bdae.. everyone's telling me 21st is impt.. celebrate and all.. but hu really asked me bout celebration? anyone really planned a celebration for me? no.. no one cept my bestie and my family.. dats why i love my bestie.. dats why i love my family.. i used to treat my other frends like another branch of family.. i treated dem sincerely with all my heart... but dey dun even rem my bdae.. it's just nothing to dem.. i'm just a fool.. i alwayz believe how u want ppl to treat u.. treat dem de same... but i nv gotten back how i treat others.. i nv got de same sincereity and heart back from those ppl i used to love... i used to love these frends more den my own real family.. i loved these ppl with all my heart.. whenever dey wanted anything from me.. i tried my best to do it for dem.. i nv said no to dem.. but this is how dey forget me.. i'm just insignificant to dem.. even my classmate of less den 6 mths show she cared by getting me a gift with much thought.. i'm just truly disappointed.. i'm just so stupid.. i'm tearing as i'm typing this... dats cuz i still care bout those ppl.. and i care wad dey think about me.. but maybe dey just think nothing of me.. i'm tired already.. nv ask for anything when u give... but what about alwayz giving and getting nothing at all... i'm just human.. i get tired from all these too.. i dun wanna be miss goody 2 shoes anymore... cuz no 1 appreciates.. no 1 cares... my 21st bdae is my happiest and alwayz worst bdae... it's happiest cuz i spent it with my family.. ppl dat i've just learnt to love with my all... but worst cuz ppl dat i've loved for de past few years didnt care about it at all.. i've had enuff... i've seen and felt enuff... from now on.. i'm just gonna concentrate on ppl hu truly loves me.. dat includes my real family and my bestie(and her other half- dey are really really nice to me).. my family and my bestie are godsend.. dey are de best thing dat has happened to me.. i have no regrets being me.. cuz i have dem to love me.. after putting my love on de wrong ppl for de past 6 years.. i've finally learnt to love de right ppl.. and i wanna keep loving dem.. and i nv wanna lose these ppl.. i love dem..

2006-12-08T10:45:00.000+08:00

went out for drinks with my classmate last nite.. after drinks we had supper at newton.. super spicy stingray.. think i haven had it for too long i couldnt stand de spici-ness.. after dat.. came back and threw up.. i think i'm getting old.. throwing up after a few drinks.. WEAK! hahaha.. i nv used to throw up dat easily.. well.. at least i dun cry and act like a baby after i get drunk now.. :p
haha.. wonder if tonite's still on.. better go find some hot stuff to eat.. head hurts...

2006-12-07T14:23:00.000+08:00

FINALLY! my examz are over! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and ms b's examz is OVER too!!!! hahaha.. gonna have a good rest from now on.. and from next week onwards gonna start my own intensive revision.. hehe..

2006-12-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

went out for dinner with mommy and sis just now.. went vivo city and had dinner at crystal jade.. ate quite a few stuff.. was really really full after de whole thing.. de food was generally not too bad.. with de toufu being exceptionally good.. well.. for de whole ambience service and food thingy.. de price to pay for 3 ppl was a whopping 160.. well.. 160 might not be a lot to u guys.. but to me a poor student.. it's alot.. and to me.. spending 160 on a meal.. when it's not paid ur bf is plain stupid.. HAHAHA! :p anywayz.. mommy treated.. and i feel de pinch for mommy.. dun wan mommy to spend so much.. and both daddy and mommy gave me red pkts.. i'm rich from all de red pkts i received.. being 21 IS special.. specially many red pkts.. ok.. sentence structure prob... came home.. cut cake.. and ta dah! my 21st bdae is finally over! so much for being 21.. but it was well spent.. afternoon chat with de gers from my class.. den a nice lil dinner with my loved ones... i really like how i've spent my bdae.. nice and quiet.. very me now.. took some pics with de cake and mommy.. will load dem up later.. tml's my last paper den it's off to some drinking with de gers AND boys from my class haha.. den sat will see me and my bestie and her significant other of 3.5 years.. haha.. i got it right this time! :p yea.. i'm a happy ger with a pretty teapot.. hahaha! :p

2006-12-06T17:25:00.000+08:00

ms b! my bestie! i saw wad u wrote on ur blog.. ty for ur wishes.. i will walk our my comfort zone and embrace the 21st year of my life with courage....
=)

2006-12-06T16:55:00.000+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday to Myself [:

todae marks the start of a new phase of my life.. it's my 21st todae.. nothing special done todae.. been to sch.. had examz.. had a sucky econs paper.. dats about all.. haha! ok.. my very sweet classmate rena gave me a pressie.. it's a teapot set! it's pink in color and really sweet.. haha! den after de econs paper we had lunch at mos burger and yakked for sometime den came home.. saw yujia on de bus on de way home.. became alot prettier already.. hehe.. dats my pri AND sch schoolmate.. later on going for dinner with my mom and sis.. it's a bdae treat from.. someone.. dun knw which of dem.. haha.. thank you to all who wished me happy birthday.. and of cuz de 1st would be my bestie ms b! she is de best i tell u! best dere can ever be.. =) i love dat ger.. tml's gonna be my last paper.. and de most dreaded of all.. MATHS! omg i hate maths.. gonna get it over and done with and off to partying at nite! weeeeeeeeee hahahaha.. gonna go rest abit den go out for dinner.. love ya all loads!

2006-12-05T16:44:00.001+08:00

did my ibm paper todae.. didnt have time to finish de whole paper.. duno how i gonna fare for this.. after de paper we were deciding ware to go on thurs.. still cant decide! haha.. i'm not gonna decide.. dun like to decide such stuff.. and den rena reminded me.. todae is de last day dat i'll be 20 years old.. haha.. i didnt tot of dat.. come tml i'll be 21 years old.. so scary.. it's really scary for me.. i'm afraid of all the "extras" dat comes with being 21.. for now.. 2 papers down.. 2 more to go.. tml.. econs.. tml sis is gonna be home she's not gonna be working.. prob gonna order pizza or something.. ms b u wanna come over and have pizza too? i dun really dare to ask u.. cuz.. i dun wan u to come and nv study again.. =\ i wanna buy a cake for myself tml.. but... i'm lazy to go buy.. haha.. dumb.. see how again tml.. and i keep getting this feeling no one rems my bdae.. so sad rite? haha.. maybe it's true.. mommy's back and cooking.. i shall go peep at de food she's cookin..

2006-12-05T16:44:00.000+08:00

2006-12-04T15:26:00.000+08:00

friday morning woke up and went out to meet shumei at cityhall mrt.. met her at ard 11.. went to bakerzinn for lunch while waitin for jo-ann and her son joel (i think it's spelled this way) to come.. jo-ann's son is soooo cute.. haha.. had mushroom linguine in cream sauce with strawberry italian soda.. had warm chocolate cake for dessert.. de warm chocolate was fantastic! i high recommend it! hahhaa... finished lunch at ard 1+? came home and was supposed to study but i ended up procrastinating.. and sleeping.. haha.. oh.. btw.. de lunch was an early birthday treat.. at night went to taka to meet oror and ade while dey were having their dinner at pepperlunch.. later on went to meet de rest at devilsbar.. 1stly.. met up with pk and song at starbucks.. pk sae 21 years old buy me tix at some stupid RA show specialised cinema at chinatown.. -.-'' anywayz.. we went devilsbar for boss' bdae celebration.. not mine.. den met boss and ogk and ju.. met linnet aka s3cr3ts.. den saw boss' bro.. it was his lil brother.. as in his real brother.. and i stupidly tot it was his "bro" i mean.. hu ask him to go ard calling everyone bro.. -.-'' den more ppl came.. anywayz.. had some liquor.. and de whole thing ended ard 2+ den took cab home with uncle and bra`der..

sat was spent at home doing tv tv tv and animes.. yes i knw.. no studying again.. i cant help it.. at nite went for grandma's bdae celebration at some restaurant.. yes.. aint my bdae celebration.. AGAIN! hahaha... and as i was wondering if anyone really remembered my bdae.. i got pressies from my family.. got a red packet from my fav aunt.. got 1 from grandma 1 from uncle 1 from my 1st aunt.. den i got pressies from another 3 of my aunts.. yea.. i have lotsa aunts.. family's great.. they nv forget important dates.. i wonder if my "family" remembers my bdae.. :< anywayz.. had dinner.. talked a hell lot during dinner with my sis.. my aunt was complainin dat we talked too much and poor mommy sitting in de middle of both of us was suffering from the high volume lvl.. hahaha.. poor mommy.. finished at approximately 10.. came home.. did some stuffs.. went to bed.. again.. no study.. haha.. =\ i feel bad now..

sundae.. woke up.. had lunch bought by my aunt.. den continued to watch tv.. till nite... finally at ard 9pm i switched everything off and went to study.. lied around reading soci notes.. slpt at ard 12mn set my alarm for 7.30am thinkin dat i'll wake up early to study.. morning came and i just kept snoozing my alarm.. i did dat till finally at 9 i switched de alarm off! hahaha.. ok dats REALLY bad.. woke up at 9.30.. bathed and went to school.. study a lil on de bus and dere was this lil ger dat kept lookin at my notes on de bus.. wonder wads she lookin at? can she understand parsons? weird.. hahaha.. and she kept staring at me! like i stole her husband or something.. and as if she has a husband.. haa! soci paper todae was ok.. not too bad.. but basically we wrote de examz in de lecture hall and i hate dat.. cuz de "tables" arent tables but a lil flap from de chair.. couldnt write properly.. and i didnt really have time to complete the whole paper.. so.. dumb.. so now it's 1 down 3 to go.. gotta go study study for my ibm tml.. i'm sooooo dead for my ibm.. haven studied a single thing for ibm.. better go mug..blog again some other time.. or whatever.. oh ya.. and dottie asked if i wanted to buy birkies.. i wanna buy birkies but no. 1 i cant decide which design i wan.. no. 2 i'm so fucking broke! haha.. believe me.. i m.. :p ok.. studying time!

okok.. before i go study.. i just want to sae this.. i'm really happy for my bestie and her other half... they've been together for 3.5 years and still going strong.. well.. like she saes dey are like soul mates.. i'm really happy dat she's found someone dat truly cares and love her and someone dat she truly cares and love... de love is 2 sided.. not like mine.. alwayz lop sided.. haha! anywayz.. really really happy dat my bestie is happy.. ok.. i'm getting long winded.. i better finish off here.. study time! =)

2006-11-30T19:29:00.000+08:00

01. ( ) I did ballet
02. ( ) I did gymnastics
03. ( ) I paint my fingernails/ toenails
04. (Y) I wear/ have worn flip flops as anything other than beach wear
05. (Y) I own clothes that are pink
06. ( ) I watch Dr Who because I fancy the Doctor
07. ( ) I own hair straighteners
08. ( ) I drink alco pops
09. (Y) I enjoy clothes shopping
10. (Y) I keep a teddy bear on my bed
11. ( ) I prefer high heels to flats
12. (Y) I don't know the 'offside rule'
13. ( ) I prefer diet drinks to full fat
14. (Y) I love bubble baths
15. (Y) I read lifestyle magazines
16. ( ) Valentine's day is a good thing
17. (Y) I would love to have a photo shoot
18. (Y) I love to get dressed up
19. ( ) I use a hair dryer
20. (Y) I am scared of spiders
21. ( ) I use fake tanning products
22. (Y) I can't change a tyre
23. (Y) I can't change a plug
24. (Y) I have thought about names for my as yet unconceived children
25. ( ) I go to the gym in preference to doing sport
26. (Y) I see myself as fatter than I am
27. (Y) I like to receive flowers
28. (Y) I like things that are pretty for pretty's sake
29. (Y) I enjoy talking on the phone
30. (Y) Cushions have a point
31. (Y) I accessorize
32. ( ) I 'coo' over babies
33. ( ) I keep a diary
34. (Y) I eat salads in restaurants
35. (Y) I am on/ have ever been on a diet
36. (Y) I like chick flicks
37. (Y) I won't leave the house without make up
38. (Y) I enjoyed/ would enjoy being a bridesmaid
39. (Y) Weddings are romantic
40. (Y) I exfoliate my skin
41. ( ) I have a skincare routine and stick to it religiously
42. ( ) I sunbathe
43. (Y) Camping is Wrong
44. (Y) I like to read books that involve romance
45. ( ) I have more female friends than male
47. ( ) I don't like to do any activities that may break my nails
48. ( ) I go to beauty salons
49. (Y) I have matching underwear
50. ( ) I don't drink pints
51. (Y) I like glitter
52. ( ) I take vitamin supplements regularly
53. (Y) I have read a self help book
54. (Y) I like going into gift shops
55. (Y) Chocolate is wonderful
56. (Y) I know what pilates is
57. (Y) I tell my female best friend everything
58. (Y) I own concealer
59. ( ) I take great pride in wrapping presents well
60. ( ) I have been known to 'flutter' my eyelashes
61. (Y) I always take a handbag out with me
62. ( ) I use lip balm whether I have chapped lips or not
63. ( ) I believe in fairies
64. (Y) I enjoyed playing with Barbie/Sindy dolls as a child
65. ( ) I own more than 5 teddy bears
66. (Y) I own more than 10 pairs of shoes
67. (Y) I worry about cellulite
68. ( ) I know the names of all of my friends' children
69. (Y) The number 69 isn't just about sex you know
70. (Y) I have more than one hand bag
71. (Y) I have no sense of direction
73. (Y) I like candles
74. (Y) My fiance expecting me to be ready to go out in 5 minutes is simply unreasonable
75. (Y) I read my horoscope
76. ( ) I read my fiance's horoscope
77. ( ) Wearing too much black drains the colour out of me
78. ( ) I don't do DIY
79. ( ) I use eye cream
80. (Y) I wanted to be a princess when I was little
81. (Y) Farting in front of anyone is deeply embarrassing
82. (Y) I drink 8 glasses of water a day - i THINK
83. ( ) I use at least SPF15 on my face every day
84. ( ) I can't punch
85. ( ) I get bra fitted on a regular basis
86. (Y) I dance at parties without needing to be drunk
87. ( ) The ladies toilets have social significance
88. ( ) I don't like violence in films
90. (Y) Not being able to shower every day would be unbearable
91. (Y) Girl's nights out/ girl's nights in are fabulous
92. (Y) I wear skirts out of choice
93. ( )I have been referred to as 'giggly'
94. (Y) I like to be 'pretty'
95. (Y) Men are from Mars and women are from Venus
96. (Y) Bakeries are a den of temptation ( I LOVE BREAD!)
97. (Y) Baby clothes are just so adorable
98. (Y) I drink herbal tea
99. ( ) I have been known to put on a 'girly' voice
100.(Y) I love jewelery

i've been commanded to do de above by my beloved ms b.. dere.. done! =) so wads it about? hahaha

2006-11-28T21:37:00.000+08:00

meet my dear bestie after school todae.. meet her at ps and proceeded to chinatown.. weird? no.. chinatown's a nice place.. haha.. lotsa stuff to see.. stuff u nv tot u'll find dere? haha.. had dinner at chinatown.. we had yong tao fu.. very nice.. den we went to look at de accessories.. made a necklace at 1 of de shops.. very nice.. when i have time or when i wear it den i take a pic of it.. hehe.. oh ya.. and py came to look for us when we were at chinatown.. py came for awhile den left cuz she had tuition.. we left chinatown ard 8? took the train back.. and here i m home with nobody.. nobody's home.. sis at work.. mom missing.. dad missing.. haha.. gonna go study with my classmates at ps mac tml morning.. gonna have bbf! hehehe.. oki.. time to watch some tv.. weeeee

2006-11-25T13:03:00.000+08:00

wed i met ms b at PS mac after school... reached about 6pm.. was having a test b4 dat.. stupid durkheim.. haha.. studied for abit till about 7 den we went to have dinner at long john silvers.. talked about andro? and dem taking off their clothes while.. ehem.. haha.. ok.. shall not touch on dat topic.. hahaha...we walked around for abit and left PS at about 9pm.. took the train home.. reached home at approximately 10..

thurs had school till 1 and went for facial after dat.. finished facial about 4pm? was ard 2 hrs long! haha.. den came home.. mommy was home early.. talked to her abit..

friday ms b came to my house to study.. but ended up watching tv.. haha.. we were studying right in front of the tv.. from ba hao dang pu.. to ma la tian hou gong.. we just kept staring at the tv!!! haha.. very bad.. this is very bad.. shouldnt study at home.. some ppl just cant study at home.. luckily i can.. but onli for a short period of time.. my attention span is really short... haha.. sent ms b off to the bus stop at ard 7... came home and had dinner.. watched tv till late and went to bed...

todae gonna do more studying.. i have 3 tests next week.. gonna die of tests.. and 4 examz the week after next... the tight schedule is gonna kill me! my classmate saes she wans to do study grp till 8 everydae next week.. i doubt dats gonna happen.. ppl in my class.. abit all tok no action.. haha.. and sadly my 21st bdae falls on my economics examination.. bahz.. so much for my 21st bdae.. lookin back.. this year kinda sucks.. not really a good year for me.. hopefully.. the 21st year of my life would be a better one..

2006-11-19T22:45:00.000+08:00

bought my 2 dresses todae.. burnt a big hole in my pocket.. total damage 150 -_-" haha! but i loveeeeeeeeeeeee de dresses! hahaha.. post de pics up somedae when i wear dem.. hehe! and i miss my bestie! she's having her examz now so i try not to disturb her.. hehe.. work hard ms b and all de best! -hugs-

2006-11-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

ytd someone told me guys usually give pet names to gers dey like.. i wonder if it's true.. i knw someone hu gave me lotsa pet names.. haha... and do guys really like to disturb gers dey like??? wad a weird mentality.. i dun go ard disturbing the guy i like.. haha.. or do i? lol

2006-11-17T16:33:00.000+08:00

i just bought my new printer todae.. it's de Canon PIXMA MP180.. haha.. it's pretty.. pretty pretty.. i like new and pretty electronic items.. and i think i'm gonna get de 2 dresses i saw ytd at bysi.. de green 1 i previously talked about.. and another brown 1.. both are nice.. hehe.. total damage including printer.. 350 :<

2006-11-17T10:22:00.000+08:00

i'm trying this... i heard it REALLY works.. haha.. doesnt hurt to try.. try it if u wan..

2006-11-12T10:56:00.000+08:00

this post was supposed to have been here last nite... but blogger got f up and my post disappeared.. almost died from headache and breathlessness last nite.. was killing me.. ytd i had ibm makeup lessons from 2-5.30.. after dat had some tea and warm chocolate cake on a cold dae @ PS starbucks with rena, angela and gz... went home ard 7... felt even worse on de bus ride... felt like i was gonna faint.. reached home and whined bout my getting my dumb printer... i'm just too lazy to make it down to get the printer... read a novel online.. part of de novel.. quite a nice story... think i'm gonna get de book.. went to bed at ard 1+ in de morning.. couldnt really slp.. and now here i m.. still feeling fucked up.. and later i gotta go help my aunt.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... i just feel so fucked up.. and i need japanese food.. haha.. i knw this is really random but i need japanese food.. haha..

2006-11-10T10:19:00.000+08:00

i realise i've been more and more dependent on my medication.. last nite i forgot to take my medication and i didnt go to bed till ard 2? and even after dat.. the whole of last nite i couldnt slp.. but i guess dat aint really cuz of de medication.. i had something in my mind.. it was just so disturbing i couldnt go to slp.. been tossing and turning the whole nite... i knew very well i was dreaming but i couldnt pull myself out of de dream and i just kept tossing and turning the whole nite till this morning.. and now my eyes are puffy from all the crying.. tell me about fluctuating moods man.. my mood is like the shares.. or even worse.. i've hurt the people who love me the most.. i cannot forgive myself.. i love dem.. but i just keep doing terrible things to dem.. time and time again.. now even if they can forgive me.. i cant forgive myself.. i just canot forgive myself anymore..

2006-11-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

after wad my bestie told me ytd.. i'm getting more and more confused bout my life.. i duno wad should i do now manz.. but 1st... i needa confirm my birth time 1st.. haha..

talked to my auntie(shiqi's mom) bout some stuff todae.. i really think love is.. ..... i duno wad to sae bout love anymore.. guess i'm really tired.. i no longer am de me of before.. i no longer have de energy to nv sae die to my life.. i used to be full of energy.. and i nv gave up.. now.. i think i cant do it anymore.. just so tired i think i wanna give up.. i dun wanna knw anything anymore.. i just wanna take things 1 step at a time.. told shiqi's mom dat i'll bring her to ktv somedae.. doing happy things makes one's mood happier.. hope dat'll cheer her up a lil..

after wad my bestie told me bout my life.. i seriously tot bout wad she said.. and now i'm getting all confused bout my future.. i dun really knw wad i wan anymore.. maybe i should seriously consider de option she gave to me.. maybe i should accompany u for de selection in may, ms b? i tot it'll be good to travel the world.. but i duno if it's wise to give up my studies and work 1st.. but if i continue studies.. i'll be too old by den.. or i can try de military.. mummy saes i should do wad i think is right.. wad i really wan.. mummy saes one's life is changing every single sec of their life.. nothing is fixed.. there's a cause and effect in everything.. every action u take in life directly affects and shapes ur future.. but really.. i duno wad i wan.. i'm kinda in a phase in life where i am lost.. i no longer have a direct goal.. i wish God would just take my hand and guide me.. telling me wad i should do.. which path is the right path for me to follow.. i wish everything would bad would just come to an end.. and it'll be sunshine after rain.. i wanna emerge a better stronger person.. i'm just waitin for a sign from above..

2006-11-06T16:25:00.000+08:00

someone bring konopizza into singapore purleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... if i have de money i'll do it right now.. it just looks sooooooooo delicious.. take a look here

=D~~~~~~~~

2006-11-05T17:22:00.000+08:00

went out with ms b and py ytd.. had dinner at cafe cartel at ps.. i had sandwiches.. quite nice.. was really filling.. after dinner we went to try out de dress i saw at bysi.. thinking of getting it.. i'm still thinking! haha! cant make up my mind man.. after dat we went cathay picturehouse... walked ard abit and decided to proceed to balcony... ms b had heineken.. py had kilkenny... and i had tea! hahaha! earl grey.. it's just so nice.. dun even needa add sugar man.. i think i'm gonna buy a teapot so i can make my own tea at home next time.. hahaha! after balcony we went to grab some food at youth park..after supper we came home.. it was time well spent.. my bestie nv fails to make me laff.. time spent with her is just time well spent.. i enjoy every moment dat i spend with her.. =)

this morning i couldnt wake up in time to go to church.. i was just soooo tired.. i took meddy last nite.. made me really drowsy.. afternoon i went for louanne's baby's full month celebration.. de baby's sooo cute.. but i dun dare to carry.. i'm afraid to carry babies.. just a soft lump of something.. so scary.. i'm just afraid i'll drop dem or sth.. hahaha.. left louanne's place ard 2+ and came home.. i have my soci test scheduled tml afternoon.. gonna do some studying later..

my house has been really quiet for de past few days... kinda not used to it.. wish my mommy and sis would come home soon.. haha.. liven up de place.. oh.. and if u guys watch princess hours? the necklace yul wears? i think i'm gonna get it.. hahaha so pretty!!! still considering de dress from bysi.. hahahhaa.. :p

2006-11-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

my mummy and my sis went bangkok together this morning.. this just leaves me and my daddy at home.. well.. we dun tok.. so wad da heck.. just hope dey'll come back with stuffs for me.. haha...

just came back from a wedding dinner.. uncle gary's wedding dinner.. real uncle gary.. haha.. it was held at shangri la hotel.. quite a nice place.. i heard de wedding dinner costs 900+ per table? actually.. i dun get wads all de fuss bout wedding dinners... but i would like mine to be 999 hahaha! i knw itz ex and all.. but it's a nice number.. represents eternity.. how lucky for couples.. really happy for my uncle to have found the love of his life.. but yet.. wedding really makes me all emo.. i start to get all emo and i start to get upset... why? i duno why either.. lets just sae i'm weird.. i'm too weird for myself.. sometimes i dun even understand why i work this way.. aint de 1st time thou.. de last wedding dinner i went i teared.. this 1.. i hid in 1 corner and cry.. now wtf is wrong with me... met lotsa uncles and aunties and granduncles and grandaunties.. reminds me of new year when i get to see many ppl.. no.. i should sae.. even more den new year.. weddings are nice in a way.. dey bring ppl together.. friends and relatives which in this era of time have no time wadsoever to meet up with each other.. so i met some ppl.. had some wine.. had loads of food.. and after a long long wait.. (de invitation stated dat ceremony starts at 7.30 we reached at 8... ceremony actually started at 9.. and dere was de solemisation and all.. tok about time management!) it finally ended at 11.30... i guess dats de biggest prob with wedding dinners... it's a neverending wait..oh.. and u knw de gift u usually get from weddings? this time it was a cute keychain.. quite nice i would sae.. and weird wedding dey had.. cuz dere was a lucky draw.. lucky draw at weddings???? totaL weirdom.. but as long as dey are happy.. oh well.. anywayz de bride's really pretty.. really sweet.. and de groom being my uncle.. is oh so cute.. i rem he alwayz used to bring me out when i was young.. cute nice chap i would sae.. anywayz.. just as de chinese saying goes.. bai tou dao lao.. yong jie tong xing.. haa!

gonna be meeting up with ms b tml.. i realise i'm alwayz running to her when i'm troubled.. wad will i do without her man.. she's a gift from god.. god's gift to me.. she's really de best u can ever find.. not like everyone can find.. but i was lucky enuff to have her.. wonder when will she start to get irritated by me like everyone else? =
just now at wedding dinner.. i asked my uncle ben.. de 1 hu slept during de sso concert??? i asked him if he wanted to go to de christmas carol singing concert event with me.. and he actually said he didnt mind if someone pays him to slp dere again! wad on earth.. i have absolutely nothing to sae.. i can just laff man.. -.-''''''''' i guess some ppl just dun like classical music.. and he actually told my lil cousin dat " this is de jiejie dat likes classical music..." thank you.. wad a nice way to describe me.. haha! de nice and cute ppl in my family.. hahaha..

i realise i've been blogging alot more den b4.. blogging kinda lets me let out steam.. i alwayz feel a lil better after blogging.. but it's kinda weird when no one's responding.. it's like i dun even knw if i'm saying de right things or am i being weird again.. haha! anywayz.. off to study! :p

2006-11-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

Ms B.. interested in going for a concert together on de 14th of Dec??? click here for de sistic link.. tell me if u wanna go ks? hehe =) -hugs- miss ya!

anyone else interested can tell me too? =)

2006-10-31T22:56:00.000+08:00

this is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO and i mean SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUNNY! i really wonder how de lecturer looks like.. haha!

2006-10-31T20:36:00.000+08:00

ever tried lookin someone in de eye? i cant do it.. just doesnt feel so right..

todae i got off de bus and i saw a guy playin basketball at de court... i looked in his direction and our eyes met.. we just stared for a while.. and den i walked awae... de feeling was just sooooo weird.. haha..

i have a POS test tml.. off to study..

2006-10-30T21:44:00.000+08:00

my flu, cough and sorethroat aint getting any better... been ard for a week already... prob gonna see a doc if i still dun recover.. it's troublesome being sick..

one of my tutorials was cancelled todae.. my tutor couldnt make it.. so me and my classmates decided to go catch a movie... we watched Deathnote.. been wanting to catch dat show.. it's nice if u ask me.. and i think L is so cute... his actions and all.. such a cute lil boi... and smart too! and de shinigami hu loves apples! super kawaii! apples apples apples.. i like apples too! hahaha.. came home after de movie.. watched abit of tv.. den watch D Gray Man... den now Deathnote anime... gotta get back to studying after de anime.. luckily class starts onli at 2 tml..

i have a prob.. i think my friends hate me.. haha.. i feel like they are keeping things from me and dey hate me.. my bestie tells me she loves me.. and i think she's de onli 1 hu loves me.. i seriously have no idea wads fucking wrong with me.. i dread going out.. i had to drag myself to watch Deathnote todae... i just wanna stay home.. and i think de world hates me.. i'm just so fucking miserable.. i learnt how to sing a song from a classmate in sec sch.. dats prob my fav song since.. it goes like ... "nobody likes me.. everybody hates me.. guess i'll go eat worms.." i think ppl just hate me and dey just dun wanna hurt me.. dats why dey dun wanna tell me dey hate me.. i should just quietly die awae.. i think this is too much.. i'm typing rubbish without thinking.. and i'm thinking if i should post this.. i'm quite dumb.. i just do things without thinking.. dats how my brain works.. i wish dere would be a huge hole dat'll just swallow me up.. i think i need professional help..

anywayz... on de topic of worms.. dere's a show coming up called "how to eat fried worms" looks quite funny.. and dere's covenant which looks quite nice.. but.. guess i'll stick with de worms.. suits me better..

ms b: haha.. nutella is waitin for u....
monkeygod: u're welcome.. hope it suits ur taste...

it's de biggest regret of my life

2006-10-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

just finished making my tiramisu... the tiramisu is for uncle gary's bdae on sundae! hehehe... will be passing him de cake on sundae afternoon.. hope he likes it..

afternoon i cleared my room a lil.. cleared my cupboard filled with clothes and books... now it looks much neater... and i realised i've lots and lots of notebooks.. so so much... haha.. so much i cant finish using dem... after clearing my room i went to bukit panjang plaza with my aunt for a walk.. walked around a lil and went starbucks for coffee.. bought coffee home for making tiramisu... reached home ard 4 and it was raining quite heavily.. continued packing my room... after packing my room i did some maths and some econs... den some tv... and den finally cake making... now here i m in frnt of my com blogging...

blogging is a nice thing to do... but dere are some things just not meant for de public to knw... some things just cannot be blogged out.. oh well...-shrugs-

anywayz kel.. u wan de cake? come take.. i made some extras... hu else wants some cake? 1st come 1st serve... hehe.. :p

2006-10-26T15:24:00.000+08:00

didnt go to school ytd as i was having a bad sorethroat and runny nose.. must be due to the lousy weather.. the dumb haze is just making everything worse.. spent some time ytd with my books.. i just realise dat i have tons of reading to be done.. and i have stuffs to do when my lappie gets back... i so badly need my lappie right now.. i just hope it'll come back soon.. soon enuff i hope.. wanna clear all my readings and stuff and be up to date in my studies.. a lil back dated now.. shessh...

todae i spent 2 hrs travelling time to and fro sch for a 1.5hr lecture.. how dumb can get be? apparently my earlier lecture was cancelled as my lecturer had to go back to india for some personal stuff.. so ibm was cancelled and i was left with pos... pos todae was alright.. slightly more interesting den methods which we were doing for de past few weeks... shall do some revision and notes printing later...

bought tiramisu ingredients at carrefour todae... i hate making tiramisu.. so exp!! dumb cheese and cream.. cakes are so fattening.. dats why i love dem but i dun eat dem.. hahaha.. maybe cuz i knw how dey are made.. haha.. anywayz prob gonna make de tiramisu over de weekend.. gonna try doing it without a container... will update u guys if it works.. haha..

and 1 thing.. i HATE it when ppl gives my no. away to other ppl.. and worse to ppl i duno... dat freaking liu qihe.. plz dun let me see him again.. i'm just so disgusted.. giving my no. awae to ppl i have no idea hu dey are.. and getting weird sms trying to be friends with me.. plz.. wad era are we in already? plz stop using lame methods to get to knw ppl.. cant u ppl just get out dere and knw some REAL ppl instead? i cant stand such lamers.. and to think i tot he was someone i knew and i continued chatting with him... i feel so dumb.. so cheated... cant even trust ppl with my fone no. wad is this world coming to manz? haiz..

anywayz.. enuff crapping.. off to more readings... weeeeeeee

2006-10-25T16:48:00.000+08:00

been working thru the long weekend.. have been helping my aunt out at a booth at vivo city selling angel clay.. angel clay is this amazing soft and light clay thingy from korea... it's really fun to play with.. quite addictive once you start with it.. it's cute!

vivo city is just 3 levels but the area is really huge? but i really didnt walk ard de place for the weekend i was dere.. i was bz promoting my clay.. haha.. and the human traffic dere is so scary... dere were just tons of ppl ard.. saw quite a few ppl i knw dere... but i just didnt call out to any of dem.. dere was this guy i had a crush on while i was in SIM.. den dere was this ger serene whom i knew from my sec sch daes... den dere's this ger from my pri sch... and another ger from my sec sch.. she actually called me.. but i just acted like i wasnt me.. sorry but no. 1 when i'm working i really dun like to be distracted.. and no. 2 sec sch was bad memory for me.. just nothing good came out of sec sch daes..

heard from ms b dat wad i said bout her friend came true... den i realise how scary it is to be like me.. believe me.. it's not a good character.. it's a weak character easily swayed by factors ard... i hate this aspect of myself.. i wish i could be a stronger person.. i hate being pushed ard by others.. i hate it when ppl dun take me seriously.. and i hate it when ppl are just so insensitive..

anywayz.. talked to my doc bout my prob.. the prob i've kept within myself for years.. doc wants to help but she has no time... so i'm gonna see another doc for theraphy... i duno how to sae this but.. it took me a lifetime of courage to open up to the matter and tell it to my doc.. and it took many sessions of consulting her and finally trusting her enuff to tell her.. now dat i'll be seeing another doc.. i duno if i'll be able to tell the new doc bout my prob... something just doesnt feel so right..

anywayz.. i'm suffering from a bad sorethroat and blocked nose... bought some lozenges to self treat... hopefully i'll recover soon enough... i shall go do some econs and write a letter i'm supposed to have written 2 mths ago... i shall stop procrastinating...

i have many regrets in life....

2006-10-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

i duno how much longer can i take it.. everydae i'm just on de verge of breaking down... this is too much for me to take.. maybe i'm just not as strong as i think i am...

god help me..

Yui - Life (English Lyrics)

2006-10-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

I'll never get used to this dusty old town.
I can't laugh the way I used to,
I bowed my head and walked in shame.

Hey, all you people running about:
Have your dreams come true?
'Cause I'm still struggling.

Instead of returning to my childhood,
I want to live on the right path today.
But I've always been a coward.

I went out to a sunny field and spread my hands,
And thought something like:
"Can I cross that blue sky?"

I used some wings to fly,
But I still can't see them.

Life isn't simple. That's why I can live on.

I picked up a wet puppy off the street.
It cried so adorably it made me laugh.

I said: "I want to be loved, I just want to be loved,"
But just asking for it won't do me any good.

I remember there were times in my childhood,
When I broke my mom's heart so badly.
Today I want to change all that.

I went out to a sunny field and clenched my fists.
I'll smash that time and place.
I can change my life.

There are a lot of things in my heart,
but I don't know how to express them all.
Life isn't simple. That's why I can live on.

I'll go out to a sunny field and look at my life's map.
But you and I both know we can't plan everything.
I can change my life.

All the days of my life behind me
Have made me who I am today.
Life isn't simple. That's why I can live on.

Yui - Life

2006-10-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

no cute guys this time.. but a pretty lil ger.. nice song.. it's de full song of de 1 i posted earlier.. 1 of de ending theme of bleach...

Kizuna (Bond)

2006-10-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

No matter how much we consider the future,
No one can see the truth.
Something is blocking my blank mind,
It's just a mistake that I've been repeating.

It's okay for my steps to continue, these hands have seperated.
Walking away from where you continue to live,
Until I become worn out I keep prolonging it
That time, that place, it will never disappear - this bond.

In time that flows, I try not to lose anything.
Passing by, we collided - true emotion
permeated my heart, into warm desires
The miracle I requested came about by chance.

Even when things couldn't stand still, amidst the pain,
I saw the light, because we were bound together.
It's okay if you lied, and it's okay to cry
That time, that place, it will never disappear - this bond.

It's okay for my steps to continue, these hands have seperated.
Walking away from where you continue to live,
Until I become worn out I keep prolonging it
That time, that place, it will never disappear - this bond.

Kat-tun Gold and Kizuna performance

2006-10-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

cute boys in action.. kakaka

Kamenashi Kazuya - Kizuna

2006-10-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

i love jap boys
hahaha

2006-10-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

been thinking bout wad my bestie said about stewardess being able to travel around de world.. de more i think about it de more it irritates me cuz it's my lifelong dream to be a pilot.. if i'm a pilot den i'll be able to travel around de world.. i so so sooo wanna travel de world.. i'm such a saggittarus.. i love travelling.. thou i get home sick easily.. but seeing de world nv fails to excite me.. so... back to my pt.. i'm short.. ya.. too short to be a pilot.. why on earth is my dad 187 and his daughter so short! i just need a lil more.. 5 more cms??????? can those tall freaks donate me sae 5 cm? just enough for me to be a pilot.. i'll be oh so grateful to dem.. argh.. typin this makes my blood boil.. de more i think i cant be a pilot.. de more pissed i m.. anywayz.. no coffee tea or me for evon... evon's just not cut out of this.. anywayz SIA probably wun wan me.. haha.. thou i think i'll look nice in a kebaya.. i alwayz look nice in weird clothings... specially traditional clothings.. i have dat weird face.. haha.. anywayz i just hope my bestie gets in... den she can fulfill her dream of opening a restaurant.. den i'll be her pastry chef.. dat is if i get enuff recipes to fill up her dessert menu.. hehe.. quoting from full house " go go fighting!" hahahahhaa..

2006-10-09T16:48:00.000+08:00

went out with my best friend-ms tan on sunday.. we studied a lil at lot 1 mac and i got sick of studying so we decided to head down to causeway point.. walked around and talked alot.. haha.. she got de slippers dat she wanted... after dat we sat down and was discussing about her friend's dilemma.. it just gets more and more confusing! hahaha.. went back home after a while.. sat we met up again this time with her significant other.. was supposed to go for the cartier exhibition but we cancelled and will be going next wk.. cuz i had a dinner dat nite... anywayz will be bringing my sis along next wk.. so in de end we had lunch at mos burger and went to ktv after dat.. sang lotsa songs.. and my crazy best friend took pictures with the television! hahaha.. ok.. jay chou was on screen at dat time.. but i still prefer lee hom.. hahaha.. went to check out the SIA flight stewardess kebaya after dat.. so i reckon i'll be accompanying you to the interview??? kaka.. u'll get in my dear.. dun worry.. =D sunday was spent at the church in de morning.. slept abit in de afternoon and did some maths and econs in the evening.. didnt get to do any ibm.. will do so in de coming weeks.. i've decided to write at least 1 ibm essay per wk.. dats for training.. hehe.. ok.. off to do other stuffs.. blog when i find de time.. dun sae dead blog again ah :p hehe

2006-10-09T16:46:00.000+08:00

sunday was daddy's 25th birthday.. was supposed to go see him cut cake on sat nite.. but i had a dinner going on and notice was last min so i couldnt make it dere.. sorry daddy! lunch somedae??? =) here i wanna wish my daddy all the best in what he does for the 25th year of his life and the many many good years to come.. and i also wish daddy and ellen all de best.. hehe.. =D -hugs daddy-

2006-10-09T16:44:00.000+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday Daddy ~!!!!!!

Life by Yui

2006-10-09T16:41:00.000+08:00

i have here the english lyrics to the song featured below...

Because of all the days that've passed, i am who i am now.
I can keep on living because it doesn't go easily
People passing by with hurried steps,
"Has your dream come true?" i'm still struggling.
Instead of going back to my childhood,
I'd rather try living well here and now.
I was born a scaredy cat.
I went out to where the sun shone and clenched my hands tightly smashing that place, that time.
I can change my life
But i really can't completely express everything that's in my heart.
I can keep on living because it doesn't go easily.

2006-10-08T19:45:00.000+08:00

i love the lyrics to this song.. aint very clear thou cant help it.. -shrugs-

2006-10-04T21:49:00.000+08:00

gawd i love youtube!

2006-10-02T20:09:00.000+08:00

met jeffrey in school todae.. had lunch.. talked a lil and came home.. de maths assignment is killing me.. -.-'' anywayz.. i realise i nv really like tv shows but i'm just so attracted to anime.. i'm simply hooked on to anime.. i can just sit in front of my com de whole dae and watch anime.. haha.. someone stop me plz! oh.. i've got lotsa mooncakes at home.. so i decided not to buy de doraemon mooncakes anymore.. i aint dat keen on doraemon anywayz.. not my cup of tea.. lol :P

2006-10-01T12:39:00.000+08:00

it's been 4 years.. i've kept this secret with me for 4 long years.. how long more do i have to carry this secret with me? i duno... but amazingly.. i feel at peace with myself.. it's different.. i've never felt something like this before... i duno wad u call this.. but maybe.. just maybe.. itz wad dey call love..

2006-09-30T18:41:00.000+08:00

i found someone selling cute doraemon mooncakes (winks at ellen aiai) haha.. thinking of getting a box..

mooncakes anyone? =)

2006-09-30T00:07:00.000+08:00

i'm thinking of cutting my hair short...

note: when i sae short.. i mean a standard boy's hair cut kinda short..

i like tamaki de most!

2006-09-25T20:25:00.000+08:00

wad a dumb day todae... was supposed to go to de bank at orchard todae to buy my bank draft.. but early in de morning when i went to school i had forgotten the cash to buy my bank draft and also my mobile fone.. felt so handicapped without my fone.. went home straight after sch got my cash and my fone.. and went bukit timah bank branch to get my bank draft.. went to de post office to mail out de draft and went for lunch with my sis and manli at suki sushi... sushi wasnt too bad.. i like jap food.. kakakaka..

handed up my ibm assignment todae.. 2 blardee long essays.. next up.. maths assignment and soci test on wed.. bahz.. off to tv + study.. kakakka...

darling plz rem to eat.. kakaka

2006-09-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

the SSO casual concert that i went to was good.. ok maybe not so good.. i would give 50 outta 100 cuz out of de 4 pieces played i onli felt that 2 were good.. de other 2 contemporary pieces were not to my liking.. i still prefer classical.. the rest of de wk was spent pretty much just going to sch and back... went orchard twice for shopping during the period i didnt blog.. cant quite rem when.. i bought a top a bag on 1 occasion.. and a pair of slippers on the other...

met my darling ostrich on thurs.. hahahha.. i did de DISC test.. and omg... itz omg accurate! lol.. i've nv done any tests that could so precisely tell me my character.. itz so accurate it freaks me out.. went for lunch and shopping at bugis.. i bought a skirt and my bestie bought a shirt.. met up with her other half later and de 3 of us.. with me de huge lightbulb.. haha.. went to IMM.. didnt knw IMM changed dat much.. its so different from the last time i was there.. quite an interesting place.. shall go dere some time when i'm free..

this whole wkend was spent rushing my ibm assignment.. kel.. itz ibm not soci.. ibm is scary.. just like soci is.. haha.. wkend saw me doing 2 essay with 1000 words in each.. i wrote till my hand hurt.. now all i've left would be my maths assignment... which is quite hard to tackle.. but i'll try.. sch is on the whole not too bad.. so far so good.. just waiting to learn more and get more knowledge.. using ur brain is fun.. hahaha.. i've had brainless fun for quite some time already.. time to start putting my rusting brain to use...

ellen aiai.. my blog is not dying la.. neither is it dead.. just sometimes i cant find de time to blog.. i'm just studying whenever i can find the time to... so sorry.. will try to blog more often.. hehehe..
:p

2006-09-10T10:28:00.000+08:00

Question: What did 1 snowman said to the other?

Answer: It smells like carrots!

kelvin asked me this.. and i actually got it correct! i'm lame.. yea i knw.. haha...

2006-09-10T10:10:00.000+08:00

it's my mommy's bdae todae.. not my real mom.. dun come tell me u wish my mom happy bdae.. haha.. itz my "mommy".. tazy's bdae.. dats why u see de huge "happy birthday mommy" below.. he's prob not gonna see it... -_-" anywayz.. we went down to devilsbar last nite to celebrate mommy's bdae.. really wasnt feeling too well but i went anywayz.. i would sae it was quite good.. i dun really fancy crowds anymore.. last nite was just de few of us... nice to see close friends get together...

saw another bdae boi at devils last nite.. that'll be cheng boon my sec sch senior.. and also my "kor" la... abit dumb to be calling ppl kor and mommy at this age.. but well.. haha.. sometimes i just duno wad else to call dem.. it just feels weird to call their names.. my dumb kor was with de rest of my sec sch seniors and he was dead drunk babbly rubbish.. or was he just faking it? haha.. i think he just wanted me to drink for him.. ended up drinkin up quite abit for him.. and itz beer! how sucky can beer get.. sorry.. not a beer person...

reached home ard 3.30 with a nice smell lingering on my hands.. it's still here on my hands! de smell! hahahaha.. itz de best smelling perfume i've tried... but............ lol.. forget it.. long story not meant to be said..

now here i am sitting in front of my com wide awake thou at slpt at sae... 4? i still have an SSO concert to attend later on... i got this bad feeling i'm going to be like ben.. slping in de concert hall.. haha!

Kelvin asked me what's so nice bout SSO? i'm no one to sae if they are good or not.. wad i ask is u ppl go give orchestra and theatreworks a try and u'll prob now why i love it so much... ok i think cut de theatreworks.. i still prefer orchestra and choral.. itz good stuff.. try it once and u'll understand how i feel.. haha

and now.. reply to some ppl hu tagged..
Andrea: Thanks Dottie! i'll be strong! hehe.. i love u too! muackz
Ellen: sat over liao.. hahahaha.. and i'm happy! my hands smell good ya knw? HAHA!
Kelvin: sch... sch's fine.... but i think itz still too early to sae anything yet... will update u if dere are any interesting news.. hahaha :p

p.s. sorry for de lousy english and lack of structure.. muz be de alcohol working up.. :p

2006-09-10T10:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!!!

2006-09-08T08:13:00.000+08:00

time check.. 8.08AM.. yea man.. itz early in de morning... woke up approximately an hour ago and i cant get back to slp.. came online but hey.. itz too early.. no ones ard yet.. so here i am.. been wanting to blog for a long time but i just couldnt find the time to sit down proper and type awae..

i've been thinking.. whenever i have the time i think of my past.. from an innocent lil ger to a sprawny kid to ware i m todae.. i'm amazed at how much i've changed.. i alwayz tot i wouldnt change... truth be told.. i'm afraid of changes.. and it scares me to know de drastic change i've been thru..
life is full of ups and downs.. but for me.. i've been quite a lucky ger.. i've have my family hu dotes on me and gave me everything i wanted as a kid.. when i grow older.. i have my friends hu dote on me.. thou at times i do meet terrible people.. but i alwayz believe dat dey are there to make me a stronger person and to show how much my family and friends really care..
the change i was toking about? aint bout de things around me.. but itz just me myself.. i was an active lil kid... inquisitive.. bubbly.. cheerful.. and i was really close to my family.. thou i cant remember clearly i strongly believe dat at dat pt of time.. i love my family loads.. as i grow a lil older.. in my teens.. i grew to be this rebellious kid... this total opposite of wad i was when i was younger.. i did all de things i shouldnt have done.. hurt all de person i shouldnt have hurt... lookin back.. i regret wad i've done.. but nothing can mend the hearts i've broken.. de hurt i've caused..
as time pass.. i grow older.. and more responsibilities are put on me.. together with more experiencing of life.. i came out of my rebellious self and hid myself in a shell.. knowing i've caused so much pain in others life is too much for me to take.. i decided to hide.. i put myself in a closet shut de doors up and i refuse to socialise with ppl.. i find it hard to laugh even.. i'm an unhappy person..
dats me.. my life.. but i believe dat everything happens for a reason.. thou i choose to hide.. but i after all.. i come out a stronger better person.. i just need more time..

2006-08-28T16:05:00.000+08:00

found the following quiz on aiai's blog.. so i did it.. here are de results..

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

click here for the quiz

2006-08-28T15:38:00.000+08:00

A young guy from Ontario moved to Alberta and went to a big "everything under the roof" department store looking for a job. The manager says "Do you have any sales experience?"

The kids says, "Yeah, I was a good salesman back home in Toronto."

Well, the boss liked the kid, so he gave him the salesman job. "You start tomorow, I'll come down after we close and see how you did."

His first day on the job was rough, but he got through it. After the store was locked up, the boss came down, "How many sales did you make today?"

The kid says "ONE"

The boss says, 'JUST ONE?!! Our good salesmen average 20 to 30 sales a day! How much was the sale for?"

The kids says "101,237.64"

The boss says "101,237.64!!? What the HECK did you sell?"

The kid says, "First I sold him a small fish hook, then I sold him a medium fish hook, then I sold him a larger fish hook, then I sold him a new fishing rig, then I asked him where he was going fishing and he said down at the river, so I told him he was gonna need a boat, so we went down to the boat department and I sold him that twin engine Chris Craft. Then he said he didn't think his Honda Civic would pull it, so I took him down to the automotive department and sold him that 4x4 Expedition."

The boss said, "A guy came in here to buy a fish hook and you sold him a BOAT AND A TRUCK?!"

The kids says, "No, he came in here to buy a box of tampons for his wife and I said, "Well, your weekend is shot, you might as well go fishing!"

Isn't that a good salesman?

2006-08-20T22:24:00.000+08:00

i'm beginning to feel the after effect of not going over to ausland.. haha.. well.. itz nothing really.. just dat i keep getting dreams.. dreams of me going over.. weird.. maybe i'm regretting.. but really.. nothing's more impt den my studies.. oh well.. shrugs..

2006-08-17T14:05:00.000+08:00

Exercise your right to do those things you can't do, because 'can't' is really just a way of saying 'I haven't tried it' or 'I won't'. Typically, the reasons why we can't are as simple as being afraid of possibly failing, while the potential of stretching the human mechanism is far too great to not try. We must attempt the seemingly impossible to truly grow, we must do things we can't do in order to get to do them.

"I am always doing things I can't do, that's how I get to do them."

-Pablo Picasso

Providence of Obstacles

2006-08-15T09:45:00.000+08:00

The truest response to our desires is the opportunity to overcome obstacles. We pray for wisdom and are provided problems to solve, we pray for strength and are given a weight to carry, we pray for anything and we are confronted with the obstacle through which we will achieve our goal. In this way, obstacles are our greatest asset.

It is our choice accept and embrace obstacles in our lives as opportunities. Of course an obstacle is difficult, strenuous and/or tumultuous; if it weren't, would anything be worth it?

"We are built to conquer environment, solve problems, achieve goals, and we find no real satisfaction or happiness in life without obstacles to conquer and goals to achieve."

-Maxwell Maltz

2006-08-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

yea.. as u can see below de clip is d0ne up already... thanks to my aiai aka er niang aka ellen.. she helped me put up de clip and threaten to hack my blog.. kakakakkakka.. anywayz.. just view de clip and de 1 further below.. itz just so funny.. more of de clips on youtube! hehe.. find urself la.. as entertaining as hardgay.. kakaka.. :p

FOr aiai~

2006-08-14T20:58:00.000+08:00

I think i noe y u cant post le.. hurhur

2006-08-14T11:36:00.000+08:00

The Poor

One day a father and his rich family took his son to a trip to the country with the firm purpose to show him how poor people can be. They spent a day and a night in the farm of a very poor family. When they got back from their trip the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"

"Very good Dad!"

"Did you see how poor people can be?" the father asked.

"Yeah!"

"And what did you learn?"

The son answered, "I saw that we have a dog at home, and they have four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of the garden, they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lamps in the garden, they have the stars. Our patio reaches to the front yard, they have a whole horizon." When the little boy was finishing, his father was speechless. His son added, "Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are!"

2006-08-10T16:17:00.000+08:00

everyone watch this http://www.glumbert.com/media/tonguetwister.html itz so funny.. i got another 1 will post it up when i figure how to post stupid youtube vids on my blog -.-'

2006-08-10T15:27:00.000+08:00

i've decided.. i'm not going over to ausland.. i'm staying in singapore completing the rest of my studies before proceeding to do anything.. and i mean anything at all.. just tot i'll answer a lil to my dear friends... hopefully this is de end of de aussie episode.. it's been giving me immense stress.. headache so bad i cry to slp.. yea.. dat bad.. i still like aussie and all.. but maybe the time aint right.. maybe next time.. maybe..

2006-08-07T14:59:00.000+08:00

Things Happen for a Reason

A man found a cocoon of a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared. He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could, and it could go no further. So to help the butterfly, He took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon.
The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings. The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract intime. Neither happened! In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of it's life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings.
It never was able to fly.What the man, in his kindness and haste, did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening were God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon.

Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our lives. If God allowed us to go through our lives without any obstacles, it would cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. We could never fly.

2006-08-07T09:39:00.000+08:00

results have been out since fri.. been waitin patiently for today.. hopefully it'll come in de post todae... am quite anxious bout the results.. not scared but anxious.. cuz i did study and i'm quite confident.. prays hard everything goes smoothly.. resultsssssssss i wan my results!!!! :<

2006-08-06T17:26:00.000+08:00

met up with ms tan ytd... had lunch at marche's.. walked ard abit and we just kept yawning.. or was it just me? ok la.. i'm getting old.. i'm hitting de 21st mark.. hahaha.. we used to be able to go out for a whole dae full of energy.. but now.. just a meal is enuff to send me yawning all de way... shessh..

was supposed to meet up with jean, gary, okin, ellen for ktv... but i woke up feeling so terrible i decided to give it a miss.. sorry ppl :< next time k?

war is making me sick.. everydae u wake up to reports of war and hatred.. why cant we enjoy world peace? aint gonna start debating bout hu's right hu's wrong.. if u ask me.. de whole thing is just so wrong i feel so sick and digusted by it.. bahz.. not gonna start with it agn or i'll nv stop! lol..

gonna go take meddy and rest somemore.. have been slping de whole dae... :< poor lil me.. lol

2006-08-04T16:32:00.000+08:00

here i m blogging while in de office.. was talking to ben (benjamin.. nvm if u duno hu lol) on msn just now.. was tokin bout some decisions dat i needa make in life.. he sorta talked me into going ahead with my plan.. but still.. i have my reservations.. i'm still scared to a certain extend.. i'm handicapped without my family and frends.. yea.. anywayz.. i'm really really bored.. i have budgeting to do.. but itz just so digusting i refuse to do em.. lol.. budgeting is probably de last thing on my list of things i have to complete.. not cuz itz not urgent.. but cuz i hate it.. i've done it once.. and it kills.. so i really dun feel like killing my braincells right b4 de wkend.. maybe next wk.. haha.. had a 1st round interview over de fone with 1 of de companies i applied to(i'm open to BETTER job options haha) dey shortlisted me and i'm supposed to go for an interview next tues.. dun knw if i want the job.. everything is so uncertain now.. i've lotsa stuffs pending.. my results.. my trip.. everything is pending.. i cant give anyone anything a definete answer now.. so.. i guess i'll just go for interview and see how things goes.. ok.. better stop blogging in case anyone else sees this.. ppl in my office duno bout my blog.. hehe :p laters ppl ~

2006-08-04T11:24:00.000+08:00

copied the following from my godsis's blog.. motivating..

Me: Why are we constantly unhappy?
God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.
You are worrying because you are analyzing.
Worrying has become your habit.
That's why you are not happy.
Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty...
God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction.
Gold cannot be purified without fire.
Good people go through trials, but don't suffer.
With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.
Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God: Yes. In every term, experience is a hard teacher.
She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me: But still, why should we go through such tests?
Why can't we be free from problems?
God: Problems are purposeful roadblocks offering beneficial lessons to enhance mental strength.
Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are
heading...
God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading.
Look inside.
Looking outside, you'll dream.
Looking inside, you'll awaken.
Eyes provide sight.
Heart provides insight.
Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the
right direction. What should I do?
God: Success is a measure as decided by others.
Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you.
Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead.
You work with the compass.
Let others work with the clock.
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go.
Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Me: What surprises you about people?
God: When they suffer they ask, "why me?"
When they prosper, they never ask "Why me?"
Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me: Sometimes I ask, "Who am I, why am I here?" I can't get the answer.
God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.
Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here.
Create it.
Life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation.
Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God: Face your past without regret.
Handle your present with confidence.
Prepare for the future without fear.

2006-07-31T21:41:00.000+08:00

ever have de too many choices dilemma? i'm in one now... too many good opportunities have come.. well.. good in a sense.. but also.. giving me de headaches.. like i've said a million and one time.. i'm a simple lil ger.. and i just like things to be kept simple... but many a times.. life aint as simple as i want it to be.. my life is alwayz full of ups and downs and lil exciting things.. no huge exciting happenings in my life (which i m glad of!) but there are always lil exciting things happening.. haha.. lil exciting things either spice up ur life or give u more headaches! mine.. well... dey kinda make me laugh instead..

another illness added to my medical history.. nothing big.. nothing really serious.. just something dat affects you on a every other day basis dat you cannot rid of.. irritating and really really annoying.. tension headache is wad it is.. i'm on nothing else but painkillers... like i sae.. something u cannot rid of.. and u cannot cure yourself of.. onli thing u can do is pop pills when it hurts.. damn it sucks..

my life rocks without my ex.. haha.. i've never really blogged bout my last r/s... but really.. i'm so much happier without my ex.. i cannot imagine myself going back to the life i lead when i was with him.. i cannot imagine how blind i was to be with him in de 1st place.. but still.. i still like to thank him for giving me a huge life lesson.. making me to be the stronger better me dat i m today.. i have no one to thank but him for it.. thank him for being cruel to me.. for putting me in such harsh conditions i never thought that i'll be going thru.. thanks for breaking my dream of life being wonderful.. thanks for being such a bastard i'll never trust ppl again.. thanks for ending my naivety there and then with your lies... thanks for all de nasty things ppl dun even do to strangers.. thanks for many many more.. all these have made me a better stronger person.. the person i m todae.. i wun hate him.. cuz he holds no position anywhere in my heart.. it's too troublesome to even remember him.. much less hate him.. i'm blogging about this cuz there are times when i'm alone and when i think of my past that puts a smile on my face.. these are the times.. times dat i m reminded that i'm going to be living a much better life from now on..

it's 10pm! time to slp! yea.. i slp early.. i'm on medication but still a happy ger.. hehehe.. =)
nitez ppl! miss ya all loads! -muackz-

ms tan.. miss ya the mostttttt!!!!

2006-07-26T19:51:00.000+08:00

onli 1 song can fully express how i feel now... Gong Shi Jia - Fang Bu Xia.. and its NOT cause of r/s.. =)

2006-07-11T14:14:00.000+08:00

back from bangkok on sunday nite.. mommy came to pick me up.. used up all dat i exchanged... haha.. de trip wasnt too bad.. dere were pictures taken.. but not on my cam.. will post it up when i get de pics... thailand wasnt as bad as i tot it would be.. de ex-co were nice.. but some ppl were not too nice.. hahahaha.. those who went would knw exactly hu i'm referring to.. got to knw everyone better.. basically a worthwhile trip..

ytd was spent busy with work matters.. so bz i got so pissed.. haha.. this morning was spent clearing the remaining of de stuff and this afternoon would be off for some events..

aiming a crumpler bag... small and cute.. and cheap.. i'm so gonna get it.. and many other stuffs on my list.. hahahaha... i simply lurvvvvvv shopping.. hahahhahaha.. i'm not gonna list de stuffs out.. too much!!! i got like electronic gadgets to furniture to apparels.. LOADS to buy! haha.. but i'm a happy ger..

events of the week......
Tues (today) - event at some hotel (not gonna tell u ware)
Thurs - meeting with toastmasters ppl
Fri- OT OT OT den Devils..
Sat- Tentatively nothing.. but should be going out with darling.. hopefully..
Sun- Church.. wad else.. lol

off to work.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2006-07-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

will update when i get back from bkk.. so till den.. take care.. love ya guys.. byebye! :p

2006-07-01T15:18:00.000+08:00

saw my doc on wed..dun ask me how.. just have more meddy.. which obvious aint very good.. had food poisoning on thurs.. was on mc.. rested at home.. did a bit of sch stuffs.. fri was back to work day.. had to do OT on de last dae of de week just for some stupid report.. i have like 4 dumb reports to run and supposedly to be handed up by fri.. couldnt finish doing everything with OT.. mon gonna suffer with my report.. lol..

my grandma is in hospital.. heart problems again.. quite upsetting.. but illness comes with age.. wad can i sae.. -shrugs- gonna go take something from tazy mommy den going to visit my grandma again..

there are loads i wanna sae.. but my brain aint functionin so well.. next time.. prob when i find de mental power to compose wad i wanna sae... for now.. i'll just go rest abit den prepare to go meet my mommy...

-i'm not excited bout my trip.. wtf?-

2006-06-22T19:49:00.000+08:00

lotsa eye candies ard me recently.. hehehe.. had a meeting with de good ppl of SCB (standard chartered bank) todae.. the guy hu came along.. not gonna mention his name here.. looks oh so cute.. and his british accent is oh so soothing to the ear.. unlike some fake accented ppl in sg.. i guess he's mixed.. -shrugs- but he's really really cute.. haha.. good meeting.. :p

going out with yvonne and grace after work tml.. going ware not very sure.. no shopping cuz shopping is reserved for thailand.. haha.. so probably gonna do some catching up while eating and drinking.. was thinking clarke quay.. nice ambience and all.. but.. we shall see again tml..

coming to the topic of world cup... itz irritating the world cup.. thou i do watch soccer and all.. sometimes too much of something is no good.. EPL is big in SG.. but itz not as commercialised as worldcup (as compared of cuz) it irritates me to see how everything in sg is in some way or another connected to the worldcup.. i guess cant stand it.. bahz..

been procrastinating alot these daes.. shrugs..

doesnt matter.. my break's coming soon.. bangkok here i come.....
:P

2006-06-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

bought my new phone on sat.. de m1 guy is weird.. i didnt knw m1 had after sales service.. haha.. he gave me his no. and told me i could sms him if anything.. ya.. like wad thing? o_O? hahaha..

work's as usual.. alwayz shopping around after lunch.. haha.. i nv knew dere were dat much nice stuffs ard shenton way till i started working.. hahahah..

met jeffrey todae.. he smells oh so nice.. lol..

saw a guy cuter den nic todae.. and coincidentally he's surname's oso tay.. henry tay.. haha... he's oh so cute..

anywayz.. i'm beginning to love joe more and more.. so so so cute..

2006-06-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

saw guo pin chao look alike de other dae.. saw andrew dat look oh my so cute todae... and i love joe!!!! hahahaha

2006-06-10T11:00:00.000+08:00

went for da vinci code with kelvin on tues.. caught de show at de cathay cineplex.. well.. nice place i would sae.. but COLD.. so so freaking cold i was shivering... de show was generally not as good as de book.. read de book like a year ago or so.. thou i cant rem every lil detail, generally i could predict wad was gonna happen in de show until dey started changing de script to defer from the book dat it started to piss me.. but well.. concluded dat if it adhere to the book itz prob gonna be a 4 hrs show.. haha.. oh well.. -shrugs- and it happened agn.. few times during de show i felt giddiness and breathlessness.. everything felt surreal.. i nearly fainted.. didnt wanted to scare kelvin.. so tried to endure.. de feeling sux.. bahz..

work as usual on wed thurs fri.. had lunch with ms tan on wed.. walked ard after lunch.. shenton way got many things to buy... and itz cheap.. hahaha.. gonna go shopping after payday... kakakak.. work was fine.. finally starting to be more familiar with de stuffs.. pretty much enjoying itz.. cept de tiredness... i'm tired every single dae of de week!!!! i need more slp man!!!! haiz!!!!! lol

world cup kicked off last nite.. with germany winning.. DE OBVIOUS! ya.. and TONITE! England Vs Paraguay... i'm gonna with England! with or withour Gerrard playin.. haha.. itz a pity he aint gonna be playing.. anywayz.. good dat my grandparents bdae todae.. prob aint gonna find de time to watch.. so oh well.. and if i have de time.. prob going over my frend's place to watch.. sip vodka watch soccer? hahaha..

-i wan a balenciaga motorcycle bag or a chloe paddington bag!-

2006-06-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

work's cool todae.. been kept bz with stuffs.. good to be bz.. i'm a workaholic.. hahahaha.. had lunch with oror.. ate some fish and chips at de arcade.. tok tok eat eat.. time passes so fast.. hahaha.. withdrew some cash from dbs to deposit into my uob a/c... a/c's getting drier by de dae.. haha.. i'm so dead.. anywayz.. chatted with ben(another ben.. this ben is benedict.. haha) after lunch in de office.. chatted from churches to soccer to sso concert.. point? haha.. point being he's an arsenal fan and i'm a liverpool 1.. biggest point of all? we both hate chelsea.. especially jose :p after de small chat with ben, continued being burried in my work.. work work work... time passes quickly.. 5.45 came and work still not done.. bahz.. tonnes of work.. still.. hu cares? knock off time! :p went back to starhub office to look for jen and wait for darren.. had a chat nearby with jen and jensen.. den darren came.. den saw nic.. chatted a lil.. and came home.. now here i m mass msn-ing with meanie and cutie and all.. hahahaha..

going for davinci code tml.. cars on fri.. and she's the man prob next week.. weekends are filled with daddy dae and grandparent's bdae.. prob planning a ktv session with de guys too.. so.. if u have anything for me.. plz msg me soon so dat i can plan.. gotta go dig out dat planner to record stuffs.. haha :p

-Casual Concert (SSO) 10 Sept 5.00PM Victoria Concert Hall anyone interested?-

Tickle Test: What Kind Of GF Are You?

2006-06-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

Evon, you're a Romantic Realist

When it comes to relationships, you're looking for a fairy tale — or something pretty close to it. While you don't really expect to be whisked away by a prince on a white horse, you probably like the idea of being rescued — as long as you're allowed to rescue back. You expect great things out of people, especially those you love, and you don't mind putting in the extra effort to make sure everyone (including yourself) is happy.

Tradition is usually important to you, as long as it's mixed with your own personality. Sure, flowers and candy are great, but when it comes to showing affection, you simply want something that is unique and special to your relationship. For you, it's always the thought that counts.

2006-06-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

ben emailed me de coolest website yesterdae.. ok.. maybe onli cool to me.. but well.. i find it cool la! anywayz.. will find out if i can put up the feeds on my blog.. otherwise i'll just have to link.. wait k ppl? patienceeeee... haha.. :p

2006-06-01T20:48:00.000+08:00

1st day of work.. oh well.. more learning.. dun ask me how is it.. desk jobs will be desk jobs.. itz de same.. just waiting for de current staff to hand over de stuff and i'll restructure everything.. her style's not exactly my style.. oh well.. -shrugs-

ate lunch alone todae.. was supposed to meet up with ms tan.. but she's sick.. poor ostrich.. please rest well... bought awfully choco cake.. saw de pretty pretty alex.. gosh she's pretty.. haa..

tml's fri.. dress down dae.. last working day of de week.. rest day... wadever dae u would like to call it.. great singapore sales is all ard.. along with GSS comes de huge amt of ppl.. which kinda pisses me off.. well.. if there's 1 thing dat hasn't change in me dats impulsiveness.. i'm still dat strong headed impulsive lil brat dat i was years ago.. i haven changed a bit in this area.. i just cant stand and would prob burst when someone in frnt me is SLOW.. total waste of time.. dun these ppl knw time is precious? my goodness.. -shakes head-

my bank a/c's depleting.. and yet i still have loads to buy.. i duno how much more can i afford to buy.. hahahha.. going shopping this sat.. yes again!! haha.. den church on sunday.. more shopping after sunday service.. ya u get de pt.. da vinci code with kel prob on mon or tues? rite kel? den de rest of de week will be shuffling to and from work.. nothing else... and guess wad? i asked, nagged, whined, pleaded for a break.. and guess wad? God gave me a golden chance.. to work and have a break at de same time.. haha.. i'm going overseas on 5th jul to 7th jul on company a/c.. how cool can dat get? life's just getting better.. hee..

-Lord loves me... loves u... loves de world.. i love de world.. i love u.. and i love The Lord-

p.s. when can i get to a shop and go.. "i wan dat dat dat and dat!!!ALL!" hahaha :p

2006-05-29T18:51:00.000+08:00

i cant resist guys hu smell good and look smart.. haha.. hu care? :p

2006-05-29T00:35:00.000+08:00

mommy and sis went KL with de rest of de ladies on friday.. i'm left alone with daddy.. not like it bothers me.. just.. oh well.. i'm basically like alone.. lets not go dere.. haha... appt letter has been signed.. got my job.. workin as an admin executive.. location.. raffles place & clarke quay.. some where in between..

met up with ostrich tan on sat.. had nydc with ms tan and py.. haha.. was supposed to go to de loo in heeren ended up going shopping instead.. haha.. dumb dumb.. py had ice cream later on.. and we went home.. not going to tell u de details la.. cuz we're alwayz mean.. :p

slpt early on sat nite.. had to go church on sunday morning.. woke up like 6.30am sundae morning.. had breakfast.. went to church.. after de service had lunch.. went town.. was a bad jam.. cuz it was raining quite heavily and itz sunday afterall... went to get another skirt from flowers in de attic (got a shirt dere on sat nite with my darling :> ) went isetan later on.. loads of nice clothes! but some are really not worth de marnie.. kinda ex.. all victorian.. very sweet.. very me.. bought another top and skirt at isetan.. could have bought more if i had a platinum sub (not my a/c! :p) kakaka.. waitin for ppl to gib.. *hint hint* hahahaha..

lately.. i'm into online shopping.. its still yahoo auctions.. but it aint de sg site.. itz de taiwan site.. got from my dottie de sites selling accessories and really pretty clothes.. i'm so addicted! i'm so dead! hahaha.. weeeeee... dottie sae i nv post pics up.. fone spoilt neh! going to buy my N80 soon (prob next week).. and a new digicam! thinkin sony i-cant-rem-de-model.. all pretty stuffs.. when i get my cams den i'll post pics up ks? promise!!! hehehe.. meanwhile.. my time is soo soo packed.. from concerts to shoppings to coffee with de gers.. to my darling! so ppl.. if possible plz tell me early when u wanna meet me so i can fix my time! thx babes! love ya all loads! muackz! =)

-i love all things victorian-

2006-05-21T01:55:00.000+08:00

This is a post mother's day post.......

created for my beloved Mum, my "mommy" tazy, and my 2 wonderful "dottie" and "nu-er"

I'm not exactly good with my words but to my mom.. thou she's nv gonna read this.. i wanna sae.. regardless of everything that has happened from the past till now.. regardless of how rebellious i was in de past.. how i alwayz neglect my family due to many many reasons.. how couldnt care less i seem... i really care.. and i wanna sae.. i really really love u mommy... never will i stop loving u.. u were dere for me alwayz.. directly or indirectly.. ur presence comforts me... and as i grow older this feeling is even stronger... i nv wanna be apart from u.. i love u =)

to my "mommy" tazy... well.. guess he aint gonna read this either.. but he's been a great friend.. alwayz ard... alwayz trying to be funny.. well.. i dun alwayz seem to be on the same frequency as him but i care for him as a friend.. and i love him as a friend too.. happy mother's day "mommy"!!!

to both my "daughters" my pretty dottie andrea and my cutesy nu-er ebel.. thank you both for being so so sweet for leaving a tag for me on mother's day.. andrea's really a gem.. someone u can confide and trust in.. and ebel is a cutesy loose screw lil ger hu really is more mature den many ppl out dere... thank you both for being in my life...

lastly.. i wanna thank the lord for bringing these wonderful ppl into my life...

created by yours truly.........

*more on the wonderful ppl in my life next time* =)

2006-05-21T01:27:00.000+08:00

examz ended on 16/05/06... well.. lets not go into details bout de papers.. dey are.. fine.. lol..

went for my appt on the next dae examz ended.. was given medicine as usual.. lets just sae.. not improving.. which is.. bad.. -shrugs- anywayz.. went shopping after dat with my sis.. bought a pair of nice jeans.. =) went home really really tired.. my feet were so sore!

thurs was spent at home resting..

friday was stayover at baobei's house with de rest of de gang.. mommy, bra`der, uncle, adede, ogk, juju, daddy and ellen were all dere.. something scary happened... i was in the standing in the toilet tokin to ju.. everything just felt so surreal.. something is not right.. my mind was spining.. and according to ju.. i was spinin my head too.. den i felt breathlessness and suddenly i think i'm like gonna die.. it's like an asthma attack.. but it wasnt it was worst.. much worse.. ju brought me to the living room ware i tried to lie down on a pillow trying to recover.. after some i duno how long.. i felt much better.. it was really scary.. felt like i was gonna die... wads gonna happen to me.. i wonder......

came home from baobei's house on sat morning.. reached home at bout 8am in the morning.. switched off my mobile and just slpt.. i had a concert to catch in the evening.. no risking going to a symphony performance slpy (higher tendency of falling aslp!) woke up in the afternoon to tonnes of sms-es regarding evening activities.. but but but.. no time to prepare! anywayz.. arranged to meet ben at 6pm at marina outside carl's jr... but some ppl very smart... 6.30pm den reach! haha.. no larh.. he was searching for a parkin lot.. darn parking lots... alwayz have trouble lookin for dem.. we had dinner at the Asian Kitchen... i would sae de food was alright only.. nothing fantastic... but i loved de fruit punch.. oh well.. i love fruit punch anywhere anytime.. haha.. proceeded to Esplanade for the performance.. we caught the NORDIC ADVENTURES: KULLERVO SYMPHONY (dats a cut and paste -_-) anywayz.. i would sae de SSO performance was generally good.. but de kullervo symphony was a lil too draggy for my likin.. but it was better towards the end... but the YL Male Voice Choir was fantastic!! well.. there is a reason i'm watching Finnish boys sing Finnish Folk Songs... haha.. i'm not gonna sae dey are cute cuz stage lights too bright dey are blinding! my eyes arent too good.. getting old ya knw? lol.. but their vocals.. wow! terrific! and ya knw.. after de 2 1/2hr performance, Finnish suddenly makes sense after all.. haa.. due to de dumb fact that de concert hall has no reception, i had no means of sms-ing my darling.. led to a long wait for her.. i felt so bad.. i so so so wanted to meet her up todae.. :< sorry darling.. next week i promise! i'll leave next week specially for u! hehe! but still such a coincidence for me to see her at de bustop outside esplanade after de concert.. passed her The Dutchess that i got for her.. hope she likes it... do u like it ms tan???? =D as her bus came already.. we had to part.. but promised to meet next week.. =) ben drove me home after dat.. as he's been living in the northern part of sg (i think it's north.. i got directional prob pardon me on this) whole of his life, getting me home to the western part of Singapore seem like a task... haha! we missed this exit, missed that turn, got lost to keppel marina and finally got home.. but de hr ride was fun.. we had alot fun yakkin rubbish on the car.. well.. all in all.. i had a really wonderful day today.. thanks to all de nice ppl in my life.. and de wonderful ppl i met todae.. mainly ben, ms b and py =D

why cant i seem to find finnish songs to dl?! haha!

2006-05-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

well.. haven been bloggin for the past 2 weeks or so due to my examz.. have been bz studying (as if! haha) for my examz.. well.. truth be told.. i was so nervous on my 1st paper that i actually contemplated giving the paper a miss.. well yea.. i knw i shouldnt do dat.. but i was so nervous.. just so nervous my hands were shaking while i was writting.. but de paper was alright.. not too bad.. *praying hard i can pass* haha..

i haven been feeling so for quite some time.. but while i was having my sociology paper, i just started feeling happy... i just kept smiling to myself while writting out de impt pts on economic base.. haha.. but it was a good feeling.. i still duno why i felt so.. well.. i just felt so.. haa.. well i guess.. it's time i had snapped out of the fairytales dream and return to reality.. knwing things make me happy.. i guess snapping myself out of this dream is de thing dat is making me happy.. and really.. i'm happy with my status quo right now.. i'm contemplating travelling alone.. thinking spain.. but i cant speak espanol... haha.. still planning on travelling plans.. hehe..

haven seen my darling for soooo long.. since her examz till now... will look for her after my last paper.. ms tan i miss u soooo much! =)

slightly less den a week later.. i'll be free!!!! weeeeee.. i'm a free gerrrrr.. hahahaha

2006-04-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

was supposed to have a lunch date with SOMEONE on mondae.. but mr someone forgot omg -.-'' 1st time someone forgot a date with me.. bu hui qu si.. zzzz lol..

went ktv with uncle on tues.. just sang sang sang for 4 hrs.. sing until no more nice songs to sing.. uncle still went to sing ktv with his ex colleagues after dat.. zhen li hai!!!!! -_-

wed was spent at home.. cant rem wad exactly was i doing.. something la.. probably swooning over gerrard again.. hahahhaa! nothing beats dat k? LOL

thurs.. which is todae.. decided dat i'll call my son oliver next time.. oliver jeremy.. or oliver nicholas.. even better.. oliver jeremy nicholas.. hey! nice name.. i like oliver.. ollie ollie.. so cute! hahahaha! spent abit of last nite and today doing up soci notes.. would be proceeding to holland v to study on sat with prob my sis.. hmmm.. well.. we'll see about dat..

tried to put up the carlsberg ad with my beloved gerrard in it.. but unfornately.. i duno how to use de blardee coding.. so.. well.. just go youtube and search for it k? CARLSBERG! lol or just watch de blardee tv.. yea u knw? de black lil boxy? heheh..

2006-04-24T19:59:00.000+08:00

i dun care wad others sae.. i love gerrard! hahahhaha

2006-04-24T19:34:00.000+08:00

PFA Player of the Year as annouced this morning: Steven George Gerrard. Captain of Liverpool Football Club, Midfielder No. 8, England's National Team Midfielder No. 4 and the cutest boy i've ever seen. He's a true gem. You should just see him on the field.. His passion for Liverpool is there for all to see. Nope.. no Chelsea no Real Madrid fan is gonna see him don their jersey. He's a true blue REDS from deep within.. I love that boy to the bits!

Just see him in the Carlsberg Commercial. You'll love him all de same! =)

I simply love this boy! =)

2006-04-19T16:42:00.000+08:00

studied at esplanade library on monday... funny ppl at the library.. or rather.. funny weird uncle listening to weird songs sitting beside me.. hahahhaa.. glaring sun den heavy rain.. weird weather.. everything's weird.. hahahha...

stuffs i bought online came todae.. but i wasnt at home to receive dem.. went for my appt.. de nurse was surprised my followup is so close.. yep.. i'm seeing her on quite a regular basis.. she just increased de dosage of meddy.. my condition is slightly improving.. but as i was only on it for a week.. de difference wouldnt show as much.. we'll just have to increase de dosage and try to see how it goes.. but de medicine's expensive! itz almost 2 bucks for A pill.. -_- i'm gonna go broke since i cant stop this medicine.. de problem with this problem and medicine i have is that u have to keep relyin on this medicine.. once u stop.. u get a relapse.. i'm sooo gonna die from medicine eating -.-'''

gonna go collect de stuff i bought tml from the post office.. cant wait to see how dey look like.. haha.. i have another shipment coming in from LA in approximately 6-10 days time.. THAT i m really excited.. something i really like at 1st sight.. i wished dey had more den 1 of it.. i could get it as a gift.. but dey only had 1.. it's ok.. i'll look for something else to get as a gift..

here i am sitting in front of my com... i cant help but think of a sentence told to me by Umer.. a sentence dat i posted earlier.. "nothing is all wrong, even a clock that has stopped working is right twice a day" i believe things are gonna start getting better... when u are at de bottom.. dere is no ware else u can go but up.. =)

Reading at the moment: My Story - A Child Called 'It'
Plans for the moment: Thailand trip
People missing at the moment: Brina Tan JL!!!!!!! and all my beloved friends...

2006-04-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

it aint working on me.. i aint feeling any better.. in fact i feel worse.. my hands cant stop trembling.. my heartbeat is too fast.. i cant breathe properly and i feel nausea.. i think i'll go pop a pill and rest.. i cant take it no more.

2006-04-13T16:59:00.000+08:00

went for my appt.. was given some medication.. collected my passport after that and went for a lil shopping.. i saw this really really cute guy.. haha.. cuter den anyone i've known so far :p (u knw hu i'm tokin bout haha) anywayz.. not de pt.. went ktv with ellen after dat.. went home after ktv.. met my sec sch classmate on de bus.. chatted abit.. came home.. did a few stuffs online and went to bed.. woke up only in the afternoon.. was really really tired.. decided to take a break from my studying schedule today.. i needa take a break.. meddy making me really tired.. and no.. it's not cuz of my gastric prob... if u shld knw.. u would knw.. =)

2006-04-11T06:22:00.000+08:00

i've just completed my target for the day.. bahz.. didnt study in de day.. switched to studying at nite.. i guess i can acomplish more at nite when dere is absolutely nth for me to do anymore (no 1 calling/smsing, no tv, no ppl online, emails done, blog done, shopping done-shopping's nv done- no going out temptation) hahaha.. so i've completed stats 1 chapter 1 -5.. i'll be completing the remaining 6-10 preferbably (must lor!) by tml..

meeting my da laopo at KAP to study tml nite.. NITE -_- nite as in.. MIDNITE... my goodness.. shake head.. how hardworking m i nowadaes.. forgo my sleep to study.. hahaha! nahx.. i have targetx to meet.. i've got promises to keep.. i've got ppl not to fail.. so well.. yea.. de stress is dere to do well.. but itz also dere to push me and keep me going..

i'm happy with de way my life is going.. just dat.. at de current moment.. i'm too happy i cant slp! hahahhaa.. why happy? beats me.. -shrugs-