ever have de too many choices dilemma? i'm in one now... too many good opportunities have come.. well.. good in a sense.. but also.. giving me de headaches.. like i've said a million and one time.. i'm a simple lil ger.. and i just like things to be kept simple... but many a times.. life aint as simple as i want it to be.. my life is alwayz full of ups and downs and lil exciting things.. no huge exciting happenings in my life (which i m glad of!) but there are always lil exciting things happening.. haha.. lil exciting things either spice up ur life or give u more headaches! mine.. well... dey kinda make me laugh instead..
another illness added to my medical history.. nothing big.. nothing really serious.. just something dat affects you on a every other day basis dat you cannot rid of.. irritating and really really annoying.. tension headache is wad it is.. i'm on nothing else but painkillers... like i sae.. something u cannot rid of.. and u cannot cure yourself of.. onli thing u can do is pop pills when it hurts.. damn it sucks..
my life rocks without my ex.. haha.. i've never really blogged bout my last r/s... but really.. i'm so much happier without my ex.. i cannot imagine myself going back to the life i lead when i was with him.. i cannot imagine how blind i was to be with him in de 1st place.. but still.. i still like to thank him for giving me a huge life lesson.. making me to be the stronger better me dat i m today.. i have no one to thank but him for it.. thank him for being cruel to me.. for putting me in such harsh conditions i never thought that i'll be going thru.. thanks for breaking my dream of life being wonderful.. thanks for being such a bastard i'll never trust ppl again.. thanks for ending my naivety there and then with your lies... thanks for all de nasty things ppl dun even do to strangers.. thanks for many many more.. all these have made me a better stronger person.. the person i m todae.. i wun hate him.. cuz he holds no position anywhere in my heart.. it's too troublesome to even remember him.. much less hate him.. i'm blogging about this cuz there are times when i'm alone and when i think of my past that puts a smile on my face.. these are the times.. times dat i m reminded that i'm going to be living a much better life from now on..
it's 10pm! time to slp! yea.. i slp early.. i'm on medication but still a happy ger.. hehehe.. =)
nitez ppl! miss ya all loads! -muackz-
ms tan.. miss ya the mostttttt!!!!
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9:41 PM
onli 1 song can fully express how i feel now... Gong Shi Jia - Fang Bu Xia.. and its NOT cause of r/s.. =)
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7:51 PM
back from bangkok on sunday nite.. mommy came to pick me up.. used up all dat i exchanged... haha.. de trip wasnt too bad.. dere were pictures taken.. but not on my cam.. will post it up when i get de pics... thailand wasnt as bad as i tot it would be.. de ex-co were nice.. but some ppl were not too nice.. hahahaha.. those who went would knw exactly hu i'm referring to.. got to knw everyone better.. basically a worthwhile trip..
ytd was spent busy with work matters.. so bz i got so pissed.. haha.. this morning was spent clearing the remaining of de stuff and this afternoon would be off for some events..
aiming a crumpler bag... small and cute.. and cheap.. i'm so gonna get it.. and many other stuffs on my list.. hahahaha... i simply lurvvvvvv shopping.. hahahhahaha.. i'm not gonna list de stuffs out.. too much!!! i got like electronic gadgets to furniture to apparels.. LOADS to buy! haha.. but i'm a happy ger..
events of the week......
Tues (today) - event at some hotel (not gonna tell u ware)
Thurs - meeting with toastmasters ppl
Fri- OT OT OT den Devils..
Sat- Tentatively nothing.. but should be going out with darling.. hopefully..
Sun- Church.. wad else.. lol
off to work.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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2:14 PM
will update when i get back from bkk.. so till den.. take care.. love ya guys.. byebye! :p
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10:35 PM
saw my doc on wed..dun ask me how.. just have more meddy.. which obvious aint very good.. had food poisoning on thurs.. was on mc.. rested at home.. did a bit of sch stuffs.. fri was back to work day.. had to do OT on de last dae of de week just for some stupid report.. i have like 4 dumb reports to run and supposedly to be handed up by fri.. couldnt finish doing everything with OT.. mon gonna suffer with my report.. lol..
my grandma is in hospital.. heart problems again.. quite upsetting.. but illness comes with age.. wad can i sae.. -shrugs- gonna go take something from tazy mommy den going to visit my grandma again..
there are loads i wanna sae.. but my brain aint functionin so well.. next time.. prob when i find de mental power to compose wad i wanna sae... for now.. i'll just go rest abit den prepare to go meet my mommy...
-i'm not excited bout my trip.. wtf?-
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3:18 PM
