i'm finally given a name.. FINALLY.. but itz a sucky one.. seriously.. i hate dat name.. i rem there's this ger in sec sch which has dat name and she sucks. b****h.. bahz... i wanna change.. but.. i cant anymore. suckz... anywayz.. ytd was my 1st day answering calls... de dbl banker was quite nice... patient and all.. ahaha.. but he said i'm smart! ok la.. i think he was juz tryin to be nice.. probably haven done good deeds for de dae.. haa! at 1st i was inconsistent. some calls were good but some were terrible. and my hands were shaking real bad! i was really really nervous... and scared to a certain extend. but later on. i improved la.. (obviously -_- duhz) and it was better. i could handle de cust myself without much help from my dbl banker. lets hope itz gonna bi good todae too. seriously. i'm prayin dat i wun get de OTHER dbl banker. he's quite stern. doesnt guide u thru. scary. bahz.. we'll see how it goes. i wan mac now. haha.. blog agn tml. byez
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i woke up feeling depressed. i might seem like i'm having wad i wan. but dats not de case. i'm not happy. probably itz due to my r/s. i wan a guy hu cares bout me. hu dotes on me. hu is alwayz concerned bout me. hu puts me in his 1st place. ppl sae u dream of wad u think. i haben had dreams in ages. last nite i had one. i feel happy in my dream. i can imagine myself smiling in the dream. but i cant sae dat for now. i duno wad to do. all i wan is to be happy. and yet dats de thing i'm feeling least of these few daes. i juz wanna bi happy. izzit really dat hard?
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can u imagine.. all de bloody hotline names dat i submitted. all rejected?! zzz... rainne, chloe, val - rejected. todae i went thru de baby name book. ashley, evyette, gene, gwen, all kinda weird names came out. ALL rejected! wtf! she wanted me to use esta! i was liek. wtf?! esta? more like PASTA! =.= joaquim is nice. but STILL! NO! de rest are too common. if not too similar to others. joaquim is so unique. so farking unique till no one can spell! so oso no! WTF! call me nameless plz. dis is makin me tired. i'll juz leave de namin to her. i shall be called wadever she wans me to be. itz dat pathetic. poor lil me. :<
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i've been with starhub for approximately 2 mths already. todae i answered my 1st call! ahahha.. but it aint de usual kinda call. de call queue was high todae so we were put to ans calls to juz take down cust's particulars and adv dat someone else will call dem back. and of cuz to adv cust on simple things. was really shaky at the start. i kept havin de errr.. erm... ah.. kinda reaction. ahah.. was so nervous my gastric starting acting up and my hands were shaking. i was feeling really cold. it was frm de inside. de kinda cold u get when u are nervous. the 1st few calls i took was really bad. forgot lotsa stuff. but as i answered more calls it slowly got better. not that i m good now. but it aint as bad as when i started. but i still have lots to learn. i alwayz tot my chinese was good. but when i started answering calls. i den realised dat there are lotsa terms in chinese dat i din knw. basically. i still have lots to learn. but it was fun. i'm kinda enjoyin my wrk now. which is good. itz alwayz good to be able to enjoy ur job. =D
will be going back to sch tml to see claudia regardin some stuff. claudia's de course coordinator for dms. needa pass her copies of my transcript. and will be enquiring on more information on de course. hope everything goes well. this is really impt to me. i put my all in doing dis. and i wanna do this well. hope everything will go smoothly for me.
mommy suggested going taiwan end of dis year. baobei and pk will oso be going. all can go taiwan. zhen hao. i oso wanna go taiwan. but i'll probably be having lessons and wrk. so itz probably not possible for me to go. so sad! i so wan to go! but i guess it aint possible. sch's more impt. i'll be a good ger and stay in sg for classes! but i wan pressie pressie pressie! hehehehe..
ok. to be honest. my r/s is kinda shaky now. lotsa arguments and all. i admit itz partly my fault. i find it hard to trust. and itz not juz not having confidence in my bf. itz oso not having confidence in myself. ask me and i sae there's nth good bout myself. nth i see dat will keep my bf by my side. i mean. i've seen pretty and nice gers and yet their bfS left them for some other prettier ger. i'm not even pretty to start with. wad makes me think i can keep my bf by my side? well.
ya. dats juz how i feel. hu doesnt wan to be a beauty? but fact is i'm not. and unfortunately itz juz not sth within my control.
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