i'll bi damned.. damned for not bloggin for 3 daes.. cuz 3 daes is a long time... which means freakin long posts which i dun like to write.. so.. i'll basically cut things short.. mondae was spent at darling's place... lazing ard.. watching tv... yea.. all those stuffs.. tues was steamboat dae like i said earlier.. went to marina south for steamboat.. haven had dat for a freakin long time.. so long i actually dun knw how to go about getting de food and all.. guess i'm juz so pampered.. i wait to bi served and not serve others or myself in dis case.. lol.. but.. it aint dat fantastic after all.. itz amazing how it seemed uber fantastic to me when i was lil? probably was de cash prob.. lil kid have less cash to spare.. meanin.. "lousier" food.. not dat bad.. but obviously no where near good or healthy... in my opinon itz juz so NOT worth it...
alrights.. todae (as in earlier in de dae.. meanin wed..) is my 6th mth anni.. amazing how we could survive 6 mths.. haa.. itz tough serving a queen for 6 mths.. doesnt make it any better dat i act more like a king den a queen... if u're thinkin anyware along de lines of fine dining fine jewellery and all.. well nope.. u're absolutely wrong.. we went back to "nature" todae.. i went to de zoo.. meanin..no nice clothes.. nofine food.. no good champage.. no wadsoever.. juz plain walkin and perspiring.. but well.. i like de zoo.. it was loads of fun.. cept for de dumb snake.. de zoo keeper carryin de snake totally freaked me out.. i acted like a dumbshit and cried when he got near me.. i had no ware to run u see... i'm alwayz having de idea dat ppl are out to get me.. and at de pt... i had dat feeling dat seeing de scared-outta-shit-me de zoo keeper's gonna bring de freaking snake to me(thou i knw he would NEVER do dat) but itz juz a dumb mentality of mine.. de alwayz thinkin dat ppl is out to get me mentality.. but oh well.. besides dat.. everything else was pure fun.. and i finally got to see giraffes! i think those were baby giraffes.. dey are really lil for giraffes... but.. dey cute nontheless.. bought a lil stuff giraffe at de zoo.. and took a video clip of darling feedin some huge fish.. rather aggressive one i tot.. would try to post de video up(if i manage to find out how to do it.. ) and some pics.. if i can find any i wanna share dat is.. oh... and we had ben and jerry ice-cream at de end of de dae.. kelvin.. i gotta agree with u.. ben and jerry sells de meanest ice-cream ard.. it beats haagen daz hands down.. i'm simply in love with dat fattenin shit.. lol..
oh.. and i read dis blog.. she's.. i suppose i can call her frend.. so... itz my frend's blog.. and she's having some r/s prob.. basically to cut it short.. itz juz.. ger breaks up with boiA cuz of new boiB.. so now ex bf boiA and new bf boiB is quarrelling.. giving her shit.. seriously.. i might sound kinda mean over here.. but if i'm in dat situation.. i'll probably kill boiA for messing ard with me and my new boi.. LOL..thou seriously.. i nv encourage.. and i probably hate gers hu do dat.. well.. of cuz it all depends on how well de ex treats u.. if he's a farker.. den i tell u wad.. cut his freakin dick off... or maybe we can all do wad my gf teaches me.. seduce him.. let him have a hard-on.. and bam! one hard kick on his manhood.. woah baby.. dat muz feel SOOOOO good.. alright.. b4 i start to write like a total bimbo agn i better stop...
tata ppl.. i love u guys.. and i love m.jackson b4 he became a total weirdo.. and he looks disgusting when he's white.. lol ...
-darling i love u-
ingenue
3:05 AM
can i sae i have nth to blog? lol.. i'm juz fulfilling de blogging regularly shit.. lol.. i have no content to blog bout. probably cause i'm really tired.. mentally drained.. my mind is messed up.. like a tossed up salad.. full of crappy shits i dun even recognise.. i knw dere's sth i wanna sae.. but i juz cant rem! lol.. oh anywayz.. wrk's starting in another wk's time.. and i'll bi havin steamboat with my mom sis and darling tml nite.. wed will bi zoo dae.... thurs fri sat sun will bi.. i duno wad dae.. and todae is fucked up quarrelling dae.. as usual.. lol. ok.. so here is it.. shits dat i write when i have nth better to write.. probably due to de dumb pms.. oh. and did i mention? i really love korean gers.. i think dey are prettier den jap gers.. and de korean traditional costume? i'm gonna wear dat out 1 dae.. oh oh.. and nurse uniform.. anyone knws ware to get it? i wanna wear it to club.. think i'm not really in my right mind now.. lol. blog lata..
i love lee dong guan(itz de my bf is type B actor for those hu duno -_- )!!!! =D
ingenue
3:56 PM
i'm tired.. oh so tired of everything.. tired of been picked on.. some ppl juz love to pick on me.. it shall not continue.. cuz i can stand it no longer.. i'm gonna explode soon and he/she is gonna get it from me if he/she tries juz 1 more time.. argh.. ghost stories aint fucked up enuff.. dis is.. fucked up.. capital F! argh.. not in a mood to blog.. have so much things to do.. all undone.. fuck i m unhappy.. blog agn tml..
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck u biatch
ingenue
3:31 AM
oh.. u simply cannot imagine how pretty i feel todae.. lol.. no.. not dat i m different and look exceptionally stunning.. juz dat i feel pretty from inside... dolled myself up for a "date" basically itz juz going out with darling.. like he'll even bother to.. DATE me out.. on a decent date.. -rolls eyes- but he juz had to piss me off! he had to.. by wakin up a whopping 1 and 1/2 hr late.. alright.. not like i was any better.. but at least i was de one hu woke him up! shitass.. den he did it agn by makin me wait another 1 hr for him.. now i'm still at home and i duno ware on earth is he... fark.. shits happen when u feel happy eh? u juz cant seem to be wholly happy.. and my dumb menses came todae.. haa.. tok bout pms.. everyone shld juz get awae frm me.. cuz i've turned from goodmood nicey evon to u-dun-fuckin-come-mess-with-me-evon.. i bite.. lol.. ok.. maybe blogging is good theraphy.. after ranting out i probably feel a lil better.. maybe it aint such a big deal.. i duno.. will have to wait and see wad happens lata.. oh yea.. and did i mention b4? i hate troublesome family members.. i HATE it.. not like i'm not willing to do stuffs for family members.. but.. OVER troublesome is no good.. and a possesive mom is no good.. anywayz.. i'm still waitin.. sitting ard nicely dressed make up all done and all.. and like an ass waitin.. zzz. wait wait wait.. argh..
oh.. uncle.. jo.. de person is erm.. actually i do have a name... but i shall not mention.. aint gonna make things better for anyone.. so i shall not mention.. but rest assure.. u guys dun knw de ass.. lOl.. nvm... itz good enuff having nice ppl like u guys in my life.. heh =D
kel.. TY! i personally like de layout myself.. was ultra bored with my last one.. oh.. btw.. which degree did u choose to major in? and we shld meet up real soon with de rest of de guys.. probably next wk or so? dinner or sth? =D
oh my darling brina.. yes yes yes! lol.. i've been a good ger.. i've been blogging everydae! lol.. oh btw.. i sms-ed u last nite at de cinema.. and after de show.. u got dem? i mish u!!! muackz =D
oh.. i had to ask ppl dis.. plz ans me everyone! lol.. does good sex make a good r/s? lol.. i was telling honey last nite dat it probably does... i duno.. he's skeptical bout it i think.. tell me wad u guys think k? i'll tell u my tots when u guys have answered! heh =D
as i was about to publish dis post.. honey sent me an sms to pacify me.. ok.. itz dumb.. lame.. but.. funny.. i'm sure everyone of you have heard of dis.. it goes like dis..
-xiaojie xiaojie bie shen qi
jing wan pei ni qu kan xi
wo zuo yi zi ni zuo di
wo chi xiang jiao ni chi pi-
ROFL! i'm gonna kill him for dat... lol.. but at least i laff-ed.. at least.. lol.. oh and reason to why we're so happy nowadaes? because.. we had a fuckin huge fite(but of cuz made up) and he finished his examz! heh.. alrights.. stupid boi reach my place already.. gonna go kill him.. bye bye! heh =D
ingenue
1:58 PM
mr. and mrs. smith.. ultimate funny show! i couldnt stop laffing.. funny thou.. i like de way dey fight with each other.. sometimes i think.. it might not be such a bad idea fighting with ur other half.. and i mean.. physically.. not on de fone thou... fighting verbally is dumb.. screamin verbal abuses at each other is dumb.. it juz makes me so so so pissed i wanna scream more verbal abuses... fighting physically.. usually ends up with me winning.. u knw y? not cuz i'll win.. itz de exact opposite.. precisely de fact dat i'll lose dat makes me win.. =] u'll understand... try it.. lol.. i was telling darling i'm gonna try it on him one dae.. one fine dae we'll fight juz like in de show.. i'll show him wad i'm made off.. haa.. thou i alwayz lose.. tested and proven.. i'm a weaklin.. zzz
had a great nite.. did fun stuff.. LOL.. define fun? probably brina would bi able to guess wad we did? loLxx... sorry all u sweet ppl.. uncle jo and kel.. i'll reply de tag msg tml when i blog k? too tired.. would bi wakin up early tml to go and get some stuffs done.. will blog agn tml.. muackz.. love ya all.. heh..
-i had a fuckin wonderful time-
ingenue
5:36 AM
dumb.. darling found out dat i was making sth for him for our 6th mth anni.. but at least he doesnt knw wad it is.. itz really nth much.. so dun expect too much.. stop thinkin helicopter figures.. aint gonna bi dat.. lol..
alrights.. been eating stingray for like de past 3 daes.. got scolded by my best frend.. apparently itz suppose to aggravate my condition.. and i din knw it! shessh.. no wonder i wasnt anyware near recovering.. haa.. gonna stop eating chicken and spicy food.. health comes 1st..
here comes de part bout me... heard lotsa comments bout me me me.. ok.. look.. i dun really care wad u ppl think bout me... or maybe sayin dun care aint right.. more like.. i'm affected by wad u sae.. but it aint gonna change me in any way... so.. yep..
num 1..
i'm proud of my body ok? alright.. u have ur so called WONDERFUL body.. like i care?! i might not have a face as pretty as urs.. i might not have a body as hot as urs... i might not even have a desirable character.. but at least... i have a loving bf... and i have my own identity to keep... instead of being a dumbass and resisting good food.. i go all de way and gorge myself out on good food.. at least i knw how to enjoy MY life... i'm living my life good.. so stop sayin anything to digust me further...
num 2..
stop injecting dumb values on me... NEVER.. and NEVER am i gonna think dat plain is good.. i go for elaborate stuffs in life.. yea yea yea.. another materialistic ger u sae.. hey look.. dun u wish for dat certain sth u wan but cant get? looks hus tokin man.. we're all de same... juz because my bf is willing to spend such money on me and urs is not.. doesnt make us any diff.. de onli difference is dat.. i hold it.. and u.. can onli THINK about it..
num 3..
stop sayin i'm a spoilt brat.. ok.. i do admit i'm one.. but stop askin me to change.. i love it dis way.. ppl showering love care and concern on me.. itz juz me... i'm a low esteem no self respect shit.. so i need ppl to constantly shower love and care and concern on me.. and when dat happens.. i become conceited.. so wad now.. u're unhappy.. because u aint getting enuff from those ppl u shld? so u sae we shld all grow up and learn to stand on our 2 own feet.. and i sae .. bullshit.. u're juz sayin dis because u're plain jealous.. well i do admit.. dere are ppl hu tell me dat and i do listen cause dey are de ppl dat DO shower me with care and concern.. and cuz dey are truly concerned.. so if u ppl haven been really understandin me.. fuck off and stop sayin shits like dat... cuz u dun even knw me!
num 4..
stop telling me how bad my past is.. FUCK u ppl.. i knw my past sux.. i was an ass.. am still an ass.. but no longer AS dumb.. stil dumb.. not DAT dumb... so stop dwelling on my dumb past.. dun sae things bout my ex bfS.. dun sae things bout me being ah lian.. dun sae things bout my bad academic past.. because.. fuck.. itz been so long ago.. i hate ppl who dig up my past... i've been desperately tryin to run awae from my fucking u-think-itz-so-funny-but-i-detest-it past... stop tryin to pry open my old wounds.. i'm as hurt as i can bi.. stop all de shits u ppl are doing to me.. plz.. i'm fucking hurt enuff.. plz..
ok..de above 4 points.. are in NO way pointing at any ppl.. itz juz at diff times of de past year or so.. ppl have told me stuff like dat b4.. and i was doing some thinkin todae.. and i decided to pen it dwn.. well.. probably most of dem do not have my blog pass.. but oh well.. dis blog ish kinda like a diary too.. i can probably look at archives later in my life and either have a good laff at it or continue to get pissed by de prob..
anywayz... i like my new blog pw.. like it or not.. ppl hu wan to read my blog have to type it.. it makes ME feel good at least.. haa.. so.. sorry my dear jeri.. u'll have to make do with woaini .. itz all de same pw for everyone.. so everyone has to sae woaini.. not onli u =D
ingenue
2:46 AM
i ate stingray todae.. lots! i love stingray! i love fishy! nvm.. outta topic.. but i had stingray twice in a dae! i love it! haa..
well.. i've decided to.. instead of stayin at home like an ass.. i shall engage myself in some project.. found a lil interesting project dat i'm gonna embark on doing.. itz gonna bi a lil secret of mine.. till itz done.. ahahaha.. it shld bi pretty easy.. shld bi finished sooner den u expect.... i'll tell u guys when itz done.. hehehe..
anywayz.. like my new blog skin? hehe.. i've changed it.. alright.. credits goes to my sis.. she did ALL de job -_- i'm hopeless at this.. i wonder wad happened to de evon hu did her own blog skin in de past.. hmm... but really.. thx sis... i really appreciate it.. wanted to put my ugly foto on de blog.. but i cant seem to get de nokia pc suite working.. i think sux at pc stuff... i m hopeeeelessss.. i used to be so good at it? shessh.. well.. anywayz.. if you guys are wondering y i made it password protected.. num 1.. i wanna kinda knw hu's readin my blog so i'll knw wad i can write.. and wad i cant.. haa.. u knw.. num 2... dere are obviously certain ppl.. dat i'm pissed off with.. and i would prefer dat dey do not meddle in any and i mean ANY part of my life.. so.. yep.. hehe..
i'll update agn tml.. i have loads to write.. but LOTS of DIGUSTING ppl.. i think i'm suffering frm pms.. i get irritated EASILY.. well.. nvm.. slp slp slp time.. heh..
-woaini ... everybody sae woaini before entering my blog.. how nice.. hehe-
ingenue
4:02 AM
ytd uncle told me sth... love is giving and taking.. itz unconditional.. regardless of how much u take or how much u give... u would not feel unjust or anything if itz really love... if itz not.. u probably would feel any other way... dat sentence makes me think of my relationship.. not anyone elses' but mine... it doesnt seem to be dat way in my relationship...
i used to keep complainin bout being unappreciated.. my bf said he changed onli when i changed -_-! makes me wonder wad kinda relationship i'm in.. come to think of it.. i'm pretty disgusted... disgusted by wad kinda person i've become... (i shall go into my past in a lata entry) i din used to be like dis.. probably after all the things i've been thru.. society thought me to be selfish... so selfish i'm disgusted by myself...
something happened last nite dat i tot i wouldnt do.. but i did.. but itz probably a good thing.. it suddenly dawned on me dat... certain things are really not wad i think it is.. it really doesnt wrk dat way..
anywayz... i'm gonna start practising unconditional love.. until one dae probably i'll burst out and kill everyone.. nah... i'm gonna start dividing my love... i dun put all my money in 1 bank.. so neither am i going to put all my love on 1 person... probably dats de best thing for me.. dividing my love between all my loved ones..
i regret dat i haven known this earlier.. it would have saved me all my heartaches and all.. saved me everyone.. i wouldnt have looked like a total asshole...
thank you to my uncle my baobei and of cuz my best frend.. ppl hu were dere for me.. =]
ingenue
2:49 PM
i'm feeling really down right now... i feel.. i duno.. like shit.. i feel like everyone's leaving me to fend for myself.. i feel like everyone's going against me.. i feel terrible.. i feel alone and very much hated.. i feel judged.. i feel horrid..
i feel like telling so many ppl off.. but i juz cant.. i feel like doing so many things.. but i juz cant.. i feel like i'm gonna lose everyting.. and i feel so scared.. i feel like my family hates me... my frends abandon me.. my darling's gonna leave me... i feel like crying...
why do ppl alwayz judge me by de things i do in de past? itz juz not fair.. i may have done wrong.. but i've changed.. why am i still judged on my past.. i feel so terrible i wanna cry... i feel like dying.. sometimes i wish God would juz take me away..
-nobody loves me-
ingenue
4:03 AM
initially.. i wanted to change the blogskin so dat i could fit my wishlist into it.. but it lata felt kinda dumb cuz No. 1... no 1 would buy it for me.. so why on earth shld i include it in my blog interface... No. 2... i'm kinda dumb with de blogskin.. haben touched it for a long time.. and it seem so alien to me.. but really.. it doesnt matter.. i'm juz gonna post it here.. cuz my best frend saes she wanna read.. lol.. ok.. if anyone intend to buy any of it for me.. plz.. u r most welcomed.. ROFL!
-Wishlist(or rather.. things i wanna buy)-
*Birkenstocks.. de flamingo 1... me and my best frend.. we're getting de same.. lol
*Crumpler.. shld bi getting de same 1 as my darling.. if not same.. identical.. at least same color..
*Ikea Lamp ... saw dis ikea lamp.. still thinkin of a place to put it..
*Levis... got discount.. so shld bi getting 2 or 3 pairs.. ROFL =x
*Tops... preferbly crisp white shirt.. or shirt of any colors.. i like shirts..
*Pumps... a pair of nice black.. pumps.. those with heels of cuz..
*PSP... not any dumbshit plz.. itz Sony Playstation Portable -_-
*Adidas... saw a nice adidas bag dat dae.. 69.. but itz on 30% sale.. lOL! i love sales.. shld bi getting it b4 de sales end.. hee..
well..dats bout all for de time being.. lOL..
have lots to sae.. but i'm so tired right now.. would bi meeting brina lata dis wk.. so excited! lol.. alrighty.. slping time.. nite nitez =]
-sale sale sale.. i love sales! lol-
ingenue
3:14 AM
i came up with a wishlist dis morning.. lol.. gonna post it up when i get back.. but for now.. i'm preparing to go out meet moi korkor.. lol..
-update when i get back-
ingenue
5:54 PM
my darling's been so bz with his studies lately.. i seldom see him already.. hmm... alrights.. itz not dat i dun see him.. more like.. i see him onli for supper or so? 1 hr? den.. he'll bi back to his books.. maybe.. it is a good thing.. being together for too long too often.. sometimes juz aint too healthy... and dis is also good training for me.. so i wun bi missing him too muCh when i start working.. haa... once i start wrking i'll bi bz bz bz.. but it wun stop me frm missing my darling.. :p
called quite a few ppl todae.. regarding my "letter" to de sim management... finally churned up de letter.. gonna send it in later in de morning... got some loose strings to tie up.. thank you to all who helped me complete de letter... most of de credits would have to go to my best frend brina.. and my cousin huiyu.. (apparently.. huiyu doesnt read my blog.. she doesnt even knw it exists!) haa.. but anywayz.. ty brina! hugs.. i apparently called brina at de wrong time... felt so bad.. my best frend was celebrating with her darl at
hangout@mt.emily for their 2nd year anni.. and i still made her help me think of wad to write in de letter.. so sorry my dear! but really.. happy anniversary.. so happy to see de both of u so happy.. haa.. and yea.. i'll help u record de presents.. LOL! i told danny.. if i'm not gonna get a present dis mth... he's not gonna get anything either.. haa.. :p
back to de letter thingy.. itz kinda like an appeal letter.. or rather.. writing in for permission.. so i'm really keeping my fingers crossed... hope dat it gets thru... and i'll bi allowed to take those dat i missed.. -prayin hard-
oh.. a lil update on wad i've been doing.. well.. nth much.. REALLY.. juz finished reading one of Dan Brown's masterpiece.. (i'm sure u ppl knw hu is dan brown) Angels and Demons.. terrific book.. loved it! wonderful.. now i'm kinda finishing Da Vinci Code.. i guess it'll bi done by tml.. watched de documentary on channel news asia " The REAL da vinci code" well.. it kinda like proved dan brown's theory of de Grail to be wrong.. i was tokin bout it with darling and i felt dat de authenticity of de grail being Mary Magdalene(as stated in de book) dint really matter... well.. i felt dat since de church has been doing a great job... preaching the right values to de ppl... i do not see de neccesity to unearth de "TRUTH" and bring de "DOWNFALL" of de church.. wad do u gain? nth i supposed? probably de onli thing gained are de millions of torn souls.. feeling cheated by de church.. made up of innocent ppl who truly believed in their 1 true God.. wads so wrong bout dat? so wad? u unearth de so called truth.. St Paul is replaced by Mary Magdalene as de rock upon which de church was built.. and so wad? proves nth if u ask me.. juz proves dat de ppl of de past lie to get wad dey wan.. constantine lied.. not de modern church.. de modern church is juz made up of souls so full of faith.. dey believe every single word written in de bible without doubt.. and since de all de time best seller is all bout teaching good to de ppl.. i do not see why ppl are so desperate to defame de church... well.. i don knw.. probably i'm quite biased towards de church.. but strictly i'm a free-thinker.. i believe in one true God.. who is it? i dare not sae.. i have no power and no sae in it.. but since all religions are juz down to 1 pt of being GOOD... wads all de fighting bout? i find it kinda contradicting at times dat ppl of diff religion defame each other... like non christians tokin bout how de church "FORCE" ppl to give money.. and how christians like to tok bout idol worship.. didn't it occur to those ppl dat their Gods are peace lovers... by engaging in such verbal wars.. u are juz not conforming to de teaching of your Gods.. i admit i ALWAYZ engage in verbal wars.. be it religious or not.. dats y i'm still a free-thinker till now.. haa.. :p
ok.. plz ignore wad i juz typed up dere.. think itz getting far too late.. i'm getting groggy i cant think properly.. haa.. update agn..
someone smsed me with a qn... i replied.. and he told me he forgot de ans.. how lame can dat be?! -_- zzzz
ingenue
12:36 AM
wad on earth am i doing at home on a fri nite!!!!!!! shessh.. shitass man.. i hate dis... i'm so bored! kill me PLEASE! i hate dis... i wanna cry.. shitass!
ok.. i'm sorry.. i knw i promised to blog every other dae.. but.. i duno.. juz couldnt find de time.. and sth nice to blog.. if i had blog de last wk.. prob bi sth upsetting.. i'll try.. i will.. aha..
congrats me peeps! plz congrats me! i got a job!!! ahaha.. i'm gonna do well in dis job... and of cuz my studies in de next sem... i'm gonna concentrate on wads really impt... oh.. if u're wondering wad job it is.. i got a job with starhub.. as a cust service consultant.. dats wad dey call dat... basically.. itz juz wrking at a call centre... i'll bi wrking 6.30pm - 12.30am frm sun - thurs.. so i'll bi quite bz by den.. less time to fool ard.. less time for my darling too... but.. seems like he aint very keen on going out too.. so.. dis might juz be a better thing for de both of us.. seeing each other.. lesser..
anywayz.. i'm still quite upset over being at home on a freakin fri... i think i'm juz gonna hit de sacks.. no pt staring into space not knwin wad to do.. looks like a freakin dumb ass.. oki peeps.. nitenitez =D
p.s. giraffes will bi back in de zoo frm jun onwards.. meanin dis mth! how great can dat be?! but doubt we'll bi going.. =]
ingenue
12:47 AM
