ah... i hate thinkin for titles for a post... sometimes i cant seem to think of one... been wanting to blog for de past few daes.. but everytime i get to my com.. i'm juz either too tired or my brain's juz kinda dead to start blogging.. haa.. juz woke up frm my lil nap.. really tired todae.. feeling a lil less tired.. but think i'll bi hitting de sacks once my darlin's back home...
ok lets see... hmmm... oh.. sometime earlier dis wk.. few daes ago.. was at orchard mrt with my darlin... queuin to top up my ez link card.. dere was dis lady on my left and bb was telling me dat she din knw how to wear her bra?! lol cuz we could see like half her breast out of her bra? i think we could see her nipple thru de tee.. ok.. but dats not de pt.. she aint fantastic lookin.. so i din really bother.. den de lady in frnt of me.. which is her frend.. turned ard and asked for help regardin de machine.. and.. she's really pretty... ok ppl.. yep.. she's a trans.. and she's not singaporean.. yea i knw.. no big deal.. we see pretty trans almost everydae.. but she's really pretty.. kinda nice.. and dere's dis sth special bout her.. guess its wad ppl call de x-factor.. den lata on.. as we proceeded to de platform.. we saw some lil gers.. and dis particular ger.. she was wearing a shirt.. with a pink vest over? with a tie? and a pink skirt or sth? more or less de description.. my goodness! de first sentence dat came out of my mouth is makin me laff now dat i'm thinkin back.. i told bb.. " no wonder guys wanna be trans" with such gers ard.. and such pretty trans ard.. no wonder guys wanna bi trans and de other guys would marry a trans.. shessh.. anywayz.. i was telling darling too.. if next time i'll ever give birth to a baby ger.. i'll most prob hire a pretty trans like de 1 i saw.. pretty charismatic elegant and nice...and my baby ger would bi put to her care.. cuz i feel dat.. being once a guy... and now such a sucessful ger.. i feel it would bi safer for my ger to learn to be a lady frm a trans.. rather den frm de normal gers u see on de streets.. seriously.. wads up with gers nowadaes.. shessh..
de other dae.. was takin a train back to darlin's hse when we saw dis guy dat stays near him.. all de while he was in frnt of me and all i could see was his hair.. aha.. but he has nice hair.. i was REALLY interested in knowing how he looked like.. but din have a chance dat nite.. went back quite disappointed cuz i din get to see his face.. but ytd nite while we were having supper near bb's place... i saw him! lol... in fact it was bb who noticed him first.. i was sitting at de table when bb went to order food and den bb called me.. de first sentence i heard was.. "white jacket.. ni de nan ren" i was like.. WTF? my guy? aint dat u? but my darlin wasnt wearin a white jacket.. den i startin lookin ard like an idiot.. den i spotted him.. lol i think i kept lookin at him.. looked too much and he noticed.. he purposely walk pass de table and look at me... =< lol... but anywayz.. turns out dat he looks abit like zhen rong.. oh ya.. and he gives ppl de sylvester kinda feelin.. lol
oh oh.. did i mention? my beloved bro is back.. yep yep.. edwin is back frm aussie.. he's been dere for so long.. so very long.. now he's back with a 1 year contract.. hope dat everything works out fine and he'll bi stayin for good.. really glad dat he's back in sg.. but haven had a chance to meet up with him.. he's bz with work and i'm bz with sch.. gonna meet up with him real real soon.. but i'll have to do some serious time plannin before i do.. lol
brina.. i read ur blog.. tskk.. seriously.. I HATE DE EX! my goodness.. not juz a particular ex of my bf... juz ANY ex.. shessh.. ex's are irritating.. bah.. i dun believe in de bein frends after breakin up shit.. dun believe in dat crap.. itz crapshit.. darlin was tellin me most of his ex dun stay frends with him after dey break up.. thou he wans to.. i was telling him.. LUCKILY u dun.. if not... i can make u all frm frends to foes.. i got serious hatred for exs.. haa.. my ex too.. call me sick.. pathetic.. anything u wan to.. but seeing my ex miserable juz makes my dae.. nth pleases me more den seeing my ex down and miserable.. i feel disgusted whenever my ex is happy.. i alwayz believe itz cause of wad dey did to me dat made me feel dis way towards dem.. or m i deludin myself? -shrugs- but brina.. u.. sure u alrite? yep.. i was gaspin.. lol.. u're absolutely rite! lol.. fri i'm gonna be meeting ms tan.. ms tan gonna tich me dy dx! lol... lookin forward to studyin with ms tan! lOL! but i hope we dun end up talkin onli.. yak yak.. lol
if u really like copyin so much.. den be a secretary next time.. and u'll bi copyin de whole dae.. -quoted by steve taylor uol lecturer for sociology-
ingenue
12:35 AM
time check 10.16pm... another 1hour and 45mins my darling would bi knockin off.. i miss him.. heard a song on de radio juz now.. reminds me of him.. sentimental songs alwayz reminds me of him.. cuz most prob de onli time i get to hear those is when i'm with him.. haa.. actually i knw he's tired... i wanna get a job too so dat he wouldnt have to work so hard.. but examz are juz round de corner.. i duno if i shld.. i dun wan de job thingy to affect my studies.. i would have to seriously consider this 1st before i make any decisions..
anywayz.. been spendin most of my days at my bb's hse.. watching tv and all.. been doing some studyin too... studyin is fun.. onli if u can answer de qns.. lol... i love spendin time with my darling.. he gives me a sense of security... sometimes i think i spend far too muCh time with him i'm neglecting my friends... i really wanna meet up with dem.. seriously... but i dun feel safe without my darling ard me.. aha.. ya i knw.. dUmb.. but itz true! i can go on and on bout this matter.. but i shall not.. i juz really miss my friends... trust me.. u ppl are close to my heart... i really hope to meet up and have fun with everyone soon.. very very soon i hope.. =(
timecheck: 10.36pm.. another 1 hour 24mins to go.. tick tock tick tock....................... i miss my darling :(
brain aint workin so well... sentence structure has abit of a prob.. sry ah.. lol =x
ingenue
10:15 PM
haben seriously sat dwn to blog for quite some time.. been pretty bz with my mock.... sorry peeps...
my mock juz ended last wk... den i went for my op.. and my scope.. it was HELL! -.- but luckily itz over.. now i'm waitin for my appt to see my doc to see how it goes.. de doc found my stomach walls to be reddish.. duno due to wad reasons.. but i've been feeling rather HUNGRY nowadaes.. LOL! dun ask me why... I DUNO! i'm like a huge pig.. eating non stop.. nv feeling full... i juz keep craving for food.. nah.. i'm not pregnant.. itz juz de time of de mth and i juz react to it in dis way.. i really got no idea why!!! i told bb i got wormies in my stomach.. most prob de wormies ate my food up dats y i'm constantly feeling hungry.. lolx!
been feeling rather down lately... havin de bad premonition of ppl leavin me.. have been quarrelling rather badly with bb and acting like a jealous ass... yup... these are all de effects of PMS! ... ok.. i admit.. dere's nth wrong with admitting.. pms affects me quite badly... physically with all de cramps and emotionally with all my tempers... i wish i could do sth bout it.. but... i cant! and i guess.. itz dere for a reason... for wad reason i do not knw.. i can onli pity my bb but at de same time pity myself... hey.. i'm being EXPLOITED most of de time.. itz de onli time of de mth when i can officially exploit him back.. aha =x
working now.. would bi going kite flyin tml... heh.. hey! kite flyin is fun ok?! muz learn to appreciate kite flyin.. aha.. would bi wrking till 4am todae.. wonder how m i gonna wake up... -shrugs- lol.. next wk would bi doing some cleanin up of my room.. major cleanin.. thinkin of shifting de furnitures too... to create a better studyin environment.. hope to get all things done by tues... BB! SAW DAT?! BY TUES! LOL =X :p tyyyyyy laaaaaaaa =
anywayz.. would bi getting my lazy arse up and start findin jobs already.. i needa start saving marnie.. muz bi a responsible kid and stop stretching out my hand for marnie frm mommy.. but..wad job!? i duno -_- haa.. i'll go think bout it.. i guess like wad everyone saes.. i'm juz too pampered to bi wrking.. by my family... my frends.. now my bf.... dis gotta change.. i'll see to it.. soon... very soon........ =x
sam: sorry i replied so late... was really really bz... yea... kinda miserable cny... but i gotta start getting used to it... he has to go back every now and then... for dumb reasons... and he doesnt even wan to.. -_- DUHZ -.-
jeri: ........... Lol! but how could i have scored 30 onli!!! :< i feel bad... oh.. sharon got a job as a 'bartender" dats wad she wrote in her msn nick.. but itz BAR MAID! -shrugs- lOl
brina: sorry dear.. i'm sooooo sorry... i think i should create a quiz for ppl to guess.. i think i shld create questionaires for my frends to fill up.. so at least i'll knw dem better.. so sorry dear.. :< hugs
-i'm soooooooooo addicted to NARUTO!!!!!! lol-
ingenue
10:28 PM
:< ok.. sincere apologies to my best frend brina! i juz did her quiz.. and i feel like i haben been a frend good enuff.. i onli got 30! i'm sorry... :<
i'm really feeling bad.. sorry...
ingenue
3:19 AM
somehow or rather i aint feeling so good these few daes.. i guess itz due to all de stress i'm getting.. sometimes i juz feel liek killin myself... i juz wanna tell myself dat dis is all over and life would be as per normal agn.. de immense stress i'm getting right now... i cant describe it.. i cant slp.. i cry myself to slp if i do.. my head hurts like it juz rammed against de wall.. i juz feel so so terrible.. but feeling terrible aint a reason for me to act liek a bitch.. i'm sorry bb.. sorry for acting like 1 at times.. i'm tryin not to.. but i duno y i act dis way... i'm juz so sorry.. i hope dis will all bi over sooner den i think... juz a few more daes i hope.. juz a few more daes...
no matter wad.. i love u..
ingenue
7:50 PM
