MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
23rd Dec... Thurs
met ah jo and julian @ town... bought ah jo a bluE rose.. went to flesh imp ware julian bought a tee.. bbm came.. was lookin for a place to eat.. found out dat julian lost his wallet.. realised it was @ de shop.. went back to take it.. went to cineleisure.. waited for pk song clement and bbgod to come.. all 8 of us watched kungfu hustle.. it was good.. de exaggerating kinda funny.. lol.. as usual.. dats how's stephen chow's shows are.. but he's kinda cute.. lol..
24th Dec... Fri
met Sean(mommy's frend jackie's son from overseas) brought him for a lil walk ard orchard road.. bad bad idea.. soo sooo packed.. lol.. went to look for julian.. he was @ mandarin selling sprays! and he sprayed @ me!!!! :< lol.. was fun.. proceeded on to E-quake @ kampong bahru... met baobei daddy mommy and de rest dere... got kinda drunk... lol.. shall not discuss bout anything bout dat.. rofl =x but overall i had a great xmas.. i think.. lol..
25th Dec...Sat.. Xmas!!!!!
woke up with a bad bad bad headache.. kept wanting to puke.. felt so so sooooo terrible.. din eat de whole dae till evening... went to warren to have dinner with mommy and her frends... went to ktv with mommy after dat.. sang till 9+ den went down town to meet lynn and louanne....went to unCle gary's cafe...
cafe@100 itz @ selegie.. :D on de way dere.. i saw pk clement bbgod and song.. after i reach.. louanne gave pk a call and asked dem down.. dey came down and we chatted.. introduced dem to uncle gary.. saw unCle gary's gF.. uncle tommy was dere too.. lol.. den i saw my classmate from SIM.. omg.. so qiao.. lol.. chatted with dem for awhile.. den left for home.. felt kinda terrible on de way home.. whole dae feel so terrible i juz felt like killin myself.. shessh.. should not have drank so muCh de dae b4.. =
26th Dec... Sun
met lynn and went swimming @ warren.. den went down town to meet julian for dinner... had dinner @ pasta mania.. den.. PUKED! shessh.. went down to spinellis to meet bbm ah jo qihe.. bikey and clara(bikey's gf)... chatted for awhile.... as i was leaving spinellis.. someone called my name... and when i turn over.. i saw my SIM classmate agn! de same 2 i saw de dae b4!! lol.. so qiao!!!! omg!!!! lolx.. zhen shi deee.... lol.. exchanged a few words and left.. and here i m now.. blogging @ home.. wad comes next? slping i guess.. or maybe A3.. -shrugs- dat'll have to depend on my mood lata on... break wk next wk! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :p
-u juz came and never left my heart.. since de day i love u-
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hmm.. i think itz time i update my wishlist! haa... went to a shop in wisma.. saw de ferrari replica polo.. i was drooling man! itz sooooooo pretty.. ok.. i duno y.. but i juz have a thing for ... erm.. i duno wads de general name for such stuff... but it'll bi.. stuffs like soccer... baseball.. basketball jerseys.. and stuff like rally tees and all.. i'm a sucker for these stuff... hey ppl.. xmas is juz 2 daes awae... anyone is kind enuff to me one for xmas? heh :p but seriously.. de price is kinda steep.. well.. a polo is ard 170... which is still quite ok.. but de jacket is.. WOAH.. itz a freaking 915 bux! man! even if i had dat much money... i'll still reconsider... i guess it'll bi more worth getting a LV bag rather den a ferrari jacket.. or m i wrong? -shrugs-
ended sch @ 6 todae... had pasta @ pasta mania with Anella.. had a lil discussion bout PEOPLE.. yea.. juz ppl in general... after eating we went to buy a xmas gift for de lil xmas gift exchange game thingy we have in class.. i'm satisfied with wad i bought.. itz nice and sweet.. i'm glad Anella came along with me.. if not i really have no idea wad to buy... lol.. after buyin pressie... we went to watch de performance put up by her church at de "fair" beside orchard mrt.. it was nice.. funny mcee too.. lOl! it'll be still on lata(thurs nite) so if u guys are keen.. can go dwn take a look.. shessh..i'm promoting! someone gimme advertising fees! =x oh btw.. itz new creation church.. itz good i heard... shall find some time and go take a look.. of cuz.. i needa go back to city harvest too.. if not my pastor's gonna kill me =x lol
ytd i actually went down to selegie.. cuz uncle gary tommy and jack's cafe was having itz opening.. itz actually CAFE 100.. ya.. itz a 24hrs cafe.. nice place.. with nice cars to see... oh yes.. dey are de bosses of Autobahn oso.. when u peeps have de time.. please go down and support oki?! peng peng chang! my real uncle hor... close 1.. close relative... not some any0how 1.. LOL! seriously.. itz a nice cafe.. dey have cars on display and dey change de display cars every 1-2 wks.. so ppl.. rem to go oki? and dey have better service den mr. bean.. mr. bean's service totally SUX.. if u guys need any address or anything.. feel free to call me... if i'm free i'll bring u guys u dwn... :p heh ~ ty ty ty =X
recently.. i've been missing my friends.. every single one of me.. especially ppl like Brina.. Jo.. Lynn.. thou it was juz a short period of time dat wi haven met up.. i juz miss dem.. i miss everyone... i cried last nite.. was thinkin of my past... sometimes i hate myself.. yea.. maybe clement is rite.. i'm a bendan.. a huge 1... or maybe i'm juz plain lousy and bad.. sometimes i wish i could juz suffer frm amnesia and forget everything... i knw u might sae i'm selfish for sayin sth like dat.. but seriously.. juz take everything awae... at least de pain would lessen... i might seem strong.. but i'm really breaking up inside... how i wish i was still a lil kid.. how i wish.. i'll nv grow up..
-i'm waitin for someone... anyone... to juz take me awae-
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1:10 AM
i've been feeling moody recently.. itz a really weird feeling.. hey! i'm not having some dumb pms ok? i've been feeling rather sick and de gimme a gun and i'll juz shoot u kinda feeling.. feel as if everyone has been stepping on my tail.. i might seem strong.. put on a strong front and all.. but seriously.. all these are juz to hide how i feel? lol.. seriously.. i got NO idea y i m writting dis here.. maybe cuz i cant find someone to tok to @ de moment and i juz wanna let it all out? all these while beneath de happy-go-lucky smily face.. i've been enduring and controlling my emotions so as not to cry.. but sometimes i feel so cold inside of me i juz duno wad to do... as i'm bloggin dis.. i'm really trying hard to hold back my tears... i've got a paper tml but i'm juz feeling so f*cked up i cant get anything up my head.. i wanted to juz get de paper over and done with and come home and lock myself up.. and de blardee econs lecturer announces dat dere's extra lecture.. wads wrong with him man.. after lecture i still gotta make my way down to orchard to buy a sth for de gift exchange thingy.. shessh.. anella bought everyone a xmas pressie.. itz really really sweet of her.. but i'm still feeling sucky... i wish dis feelin would juz go awae.. i dun wanna feel dis way.. but i really cant help it.. maybe i'm askin for too muCh.. i duno.. i juz wanna get out now.. but i cant... i'm screaming inside of me... it feels so bad i feel like killin myself.. y is dere alwayz no 1 ard when i need dem de most...
-Lord.. send me an angel.. a guardian angel.. or juz take me awae with u-
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i din blog de last few daes.. cuz..i din wan to? had no mood to really write.. no point forcing myself.. and i'm thinkin of lockin my blog too.. i need privacy.. and i hate bitches lookin @ my blog and bitching bout it..
well well.. i have a stats test tml.. haven had a test for half a mth? have been kinda enjoyin myself.. neglecting my studies for de past 2 wks... now i'm doomed.. i have to no one to blame cept myself i guess.... i guess i would have to burn midnite oil no matter how tired i m.. -shrugs- wad to do.. dis is my job as a student.. to get good results.. ke ke dou na A :p
was jokin with my frends bout xmas.. i kinda hate xmas alone.. i was telling dem i wanna find a bf b4 xmas.. ya like as if i can.. lOlx.. den we were tokin bout some stuffs and it seems to us dat ppl are tryin to "marry me off" have been hearing de.. get a bf to take care of u.. find a bf.. and similar sentences.. wads wrong.. lol.. i look like i'm in terrible need of a partner? lol maybe i m.. pathetic lil me who doesnt knw how to take care of myself.. guess dis is how my frends potray me as... maybe itz time to find a bf and pacify everyone... lol.. but like i sae.. bo lang ai! :p
lotsa emotional and mental struggle within me for de past few daes... ppl close to me would knw y.. i've kinda decided.. dere are certain things dat i'm gonna stay awae frm.. and certain things dat i gotta start doing.. i'm gonna change my lifestyle.. well i knw dis is gonna bi hard.. but itz onli for my own good.. i dun have a choice.. blame it on de society i guess... seriously.. nothing else matters.. wad matters most now is dat i get good results... finish my degree and get a good job.. dats all dat matters to me now...
-i'm dreaming of a white christmas-
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seriously.. i have no idea wad i'm doing blogging.. cuz i'm really having a splitting headache.. went to devils last nite with.. lotsa ppl? lol... seriously.. i din knw wad i was doing until i got drenched.. i was juz sitting ard and i asked tazy mommy to go mac with me.. we went to mac and when we were leaving we realise it was rainin.. so.. i din wan to get trapped dere... so i ran in de.. rain? lol! i got drenched -_- i saw colin @ starbucks.. exchanged a few words and i went upstairs to look for de rest of dem.. MY GOODNESS! devils air con no nid marnie 1 leh! i was drenched and together with de aircon.. i felt soooooooooooo cold i was shivering.. i quickly made my way to de table and got qihe to remove his jacket for me! i was juz shivering... clement was eating chicken wings and he asked me to eat.. cuz itz hot -_- no wonder he is called cute ger.. de cute things he do.. lol... lookin @ everything on de table.. i guess de onli thing dat could keep me warm was de liquor.. so i drank abit.. and juz sat dere huggin de jacket.. lol.. got better awhile lata and den started dancing and everyting.. lol.. i was dancing halfwayz and suddenly someone juz came in front of me, squeezed my hand and said.. HUI! when i saw her.. i was soooooooooooooo snooked! i could onli sae.. HI.. lol.. i saw my huihui jie!!!! as much as i can rem.. de last time i saw her.. was during my sec sch daes... dat was so so sooooo long ago! i really miss her!!! but i was juz too snooked to sae anything.. lol! shessh.. she intro me to her sis jieling.. tok for awhile.. exchanged contacts... den i went back to my table.. den when i was coming up frm de spiral staircase... someone stopped me and asked if i was.. -blah blah blah- (my name of cuz) so i was.. YA... hu r u.. lol... turned out dat dis guy is my sec sch junior's ex bf? loL! wad a coincidence.. and his table was juz beside ours! lol...same thing i guess.. exchanging nums and all.. went back to de table and saw julian.. vommiting.. poor boi.. duno y he drink until vomit .. shessh.. duno hu tah him.. -shrugs- took care of him for awhile and left for plaza sing... met baobei ade bra`der and ami dere for movies.. national treasure! very good show! thumbs up!! everyone shld go watch it.. lol.. went back to devils after de movie... tok to a few ppl.. and left around 4... i was really really tired and having a really bad headache.. ya.. i drank quite abit considering de fact dat i haven been drinkin for very long.. well.. itz hard to reject drinks frm long time frends.. oh well.. lol.. but it was really really nice to see old frends.. especially my huihui jie!!!!! jie i miss u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -muackz- :p
i was askin ppl... wads love.. how do u knw wads.. love.. sometimes i think i'm not even sure if i knw wads love... to me.. love has alwayz been sth sweet and whereby u'll alwayz smile when u think about de person.. and not feeling miserable and all... but maybe i'm wrong... i duno.. and y can guys juz gib up de ger dey like for their bro... y cant dey juz spare a tot for de ger... and y can anyone like 2 ppl at de same time.. -_- y so many y and yet no 1 can ans my questions.... haiz.. gimme some ans ppl... -shrugs-
-all i wan for christmas is u-
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2:10 PM
met up with my bestest frend todae!!! weeeeeeeeeeeee.. i lurv dis ger!! went ktv den had dinner.. ah jo joined us for dinner too!!! we walked around till around 9+ and went home.. though it was a tiring dae for me.. i was really happy... she really makes my dae.. i can feel most at ease with her.. i can pour all my woes to her.... and i can tell her my darkest secret.. -winks- lolx~ wi took some pix on de digicam... can i post dem on my blog? can i can i can i? purleaseeeeeeeeeeeee loL! =X i needa ask for permission 1st.. :p
my jiemeiz gave me a bracelet for bdae!!! scrool dwn and u'll see de pix! aint it pretty?! i'm so proud of it i go around showing everyone de pix!!! lOlx! but i'm even more proud of de paper bag she put it in! why? she actually decorated de bag for me.. she used so much effort on it.. i'm touched.. i'm no ware near artistic.. so i definetely cant do dat.. lolx~ and i really think itz pretty!!! i love it so much!! ty ger~~!!! -hugs- u've wrecked ur brain for my bdae pressie.. now itz my turn!!! i'll go wreck my brain now.. :p
why why why why why! why m i sooooooo short -.- brina saes i'm petite.. ooOOooo kKkKk.. i seriously dun mind my ht.. butttttttttt can i juz have.. 7 more cm? is it too much to ask for?! since sec sch.. i've alwayz wanted to bi a pilot.. yes.. a pilot.. not an airstewardess.. not a ground staff @ de airport.. but a pilot.. SIA is currently recruiting pilots.. i was reading de webby and i'm so so soooo tempted.. BUT! i cant even fulfill de height requirement!! u needa bi @ LEAST 165cm in height to qualify for pilot.. i really really wanna bi a pilot... now i can juz pray dat by de time i finish my education at SIM.. i can increase 7cm in height.. giving me a height of 165cm qualifyin for pilot.. lets juz all pray for me... poor short lil ME! -frowns-
-zhen ai bu shi qu dai.. er shi xin zhong yong yuan de cun zai-
p.s. i've posted de ktv pix up someware else.. those hu wanna see dem.. leave me a msg.. i'll give u guys de link.. =)
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4:09 AM
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mango cake i bought for myself!!! i duno y i did dat.. -shrugs- de weird things i do.. lolx... wo shi ge ben dan ma.. lol :p
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3:57 AM
bdae pressie from my bestest frend!!! itz so sweettttt... ty!!! =) hee
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3:13 AM
lynn.. ah jo.. me.. ju ju.. gers ma.. like to take pix.. wad to do.. -shrugs- lolx~
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3:10 AM
grp foto taken outside partyworld ktv on sat~ clockwise frm de front right: ben's frend (pretty ger :p).. juliet my wife.. me! ah jo... lynn my dear.. clement my cute ger... bbm.. qihe.. and ben.. photographer: pk aka jason :p
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3:07 AM
swesens ice cream cake dey bought for my bdae~ aint these ppl juz adorable? hee... ty! :)
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3:06 AM
pix of me!!! taken @ partyworld ktv on sat.. on de right is julian.. on de left is clement.. lol.. but dey are camera shy! :p
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3:04 AM
taken @ starbucks on fri nite using baobei's fone~ weeeeee.. too bad wi din have a digicam dat nite.. if not wi could have taken a grp foto! :p
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3:00 AM
if i ever have to vote for best written blog among my frends... it would have to bi my dd kiat!!!! his blog is simply thumbs up.. i love reading his blog! he's blog is not in 1 of de links cuz.. he prefers to keep it low.. :p sorry peeps cant post his link here.. but itz really good.. trust me.. :P
saw a personality test dd did.. he posted on his blog.. and i did it too! here's my results...
Disorder Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
URL of the test:
http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info:
http://www.4degreez.com/misc/disorder_information2.html
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3:18 PM
sat................
went ktv with jo.. bbm.. lynn.. ju.. pk.. clement.. qihe.. bikey.. and bikey's frend.. went to partyworld @ orchard.. these sweet ppl bought me an ice cream cake frm swensens.. ty.. clement brought his digicam along and wi took some pix.. i'll try to get de pix up asap.. itz kinda funny.. lol.. u'll get wad i mean when u see dem.. but seriously.. i'll like to sae a big thank you to everyone dere dat nite.. for takin the time out to sorta celebrate my bdae.. ty.. =) i had cake on my face!!! but most imptly.. i had a great time.. ty..
spent de whole sunday at home tryin to catch up with some slp.. and kinda clean up my room.. my room is super super messy... went to lot 1 to get a bdae cake for myself ard evening.. lol.. yea.. kinda dumb i knw.. but... i juz had a sudden urge to buy a cake for myself and cut it @ 12mn... and yea.. i did juz dat.. i actually wanted to bring it over to esplanade to cut it.. haa.. but i was too lazy i guess.. -shrugs- de weird things i do... loLx
mon....
went to school as usual.. going school on my big dae... itz de 1st time in my life it ever happened.. but well.. i guess.. de world still revolves be it bdae or not.. so itz really no big deal.... i was actually havin a bad bad flu.. was sneezing all de way.. lol.. went dwn to orchard to meet my aunt and my baby cousin daniel.. had lunch and shopped around for awhile.. den i went to meet anella and ju.. dey were also @ taka.. went to try on jeans... but dey din look good... dey left @ bout 6... i was supposed to meet jianrong @ 6... but my dear boi was late.. lol.. went up to coffee club.. ordered strawberry milkshake(i LOVE strawberry! lolx) and sat dere waitin... patiently.. 1st time i really patiently waited for someone.. lol.. jianrong came around.. 645? blur jr! he doesnt even knw ware's coffee club! -faintz- lol.. we sat @ coffee club for awhile.. and went kinokuniya.. silly boi told me he can DUN eat dinner.. so i tot.. might as well.. since i'm not hungry... BUT while i was browsing thru books @ kino.. someone suddenly said.. "can wi go eat?" lol!!! i cant help but laugh!!!! i tot he said he din have to eat.. silly boi wi have dere.. juz cuz he doesnt wanna decide on wad to eat.. he tells me he can dun eat.. and ends up telling me.. he's HUNGRY! poor thing.. i hurridly got myself a notebook and we went off to swesens to have dinner.. we finished dinner and went home..
this yr is actually my quietest bdae.. actually.. i kinda like it dis way.. maybe i'm getting old for all de noisy celebrations and all.. lol.. :p i've actually wrote dwn my bdae resolutions and i'm gonna stick to dem... i guess i've grown a yr older and itz time for me to take things seriously and not fool around any longer... =) and i wanna thank everyone hu celebrated my bdae with me.. and everyone hu wished me happy bdae.. i thank all for u.. i thank everyone dat has alwayz been dere for me.. ty.. =) i'm now lookin forward to wednesday!!!! i'll bi meeting my best-est frend! my jiemeiz! my darling! lolx i love dis ger! BRINA!!!! lol.. i'm so so so glad i'll bi meeting u on wed.. really really lookin forward! cya ger! :p
-ty jianrong.. cuz.. when no 1 was dere.. u were dere for me.. ty-
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met quite a num of ppl ytd.. was actually supposed to juz bi out with ah jo and ju.. but tazy mommy pm me in de afternoon askin me bout bdae celebration.. hmmm.. was supposed to celebrate @ devils.. den changed to mw.. den got like totally NO mood.. so i actually cancelled de whole thing.. but mommy and baobei were kind enuff to help me kinda plan and everything.. so i actually met up with baobei.. bra`der daddy mommy ade and lynn ytd.. we went for dinner @ crystal jade la mian xiao long bao (i cant seem to get enuff of it.. LoL!) and proceed dwn to cineleisure to purchase movie tix for de show after de sunset.. we sat ard @ starbucks opp cine till 1am.. de whole time i kept takin pix using baobei's fone till everyone kinda found me a nuisance.. lOL! ok.. i'm a vain pot.. :p finished de show @ bout 3am.. de show is fantastic.. de beach scenery ish WOAH! i would really really love to stay dere and relax... i guess i'm juz too tensed up.. -shrugs-
seriously.. i'm really really touched and grateful by all dat baobei daddy mommy ade bra`der did for me.. thank you very much.. but i'm really still not in de mood for bdae.. i duno wads wrong with me.. maybe cuz of my parents ba.. -shrugs- haiz
- ty baobei daddy mommy ade bra`der... ty.. i love u all.. =] -
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4:39 PM
LET ME SAY DIS ONCE AND FOR ALL.. WHOEVER COMES TO MOI BLOG AND WANNA TAG DEN U FARKIN PUT UR NAME DWN.. DUN DARE TO DO SO.. DEN FARK OFF.. U DUN BLARDEE GET ON MOI NERVES... ENUFF OF DE BLARDEE ANONYMOUS THINGY.. WAD I'M DOING HAS NTH TO DO WITH U BIATCH! U WANNA KNW BOUT ME.. U FARKING COME ASK ME.. THANK YOU VERY MUCH...
- sorry ppl.. have been in a bad mood recently.. sorry =] -
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1:57 AM
watched the full sg idol for the 1st time. yes.. the finals.. ok.. i'm a sylvester supporter.. taufik is gay man.. i juz cant stand de looks of him.. y on earth he won man!!! i juz dun understand!!! dis sg idol kelong 1!!!! tmd!!!!! =x ok anywayz.. lolx~! cuz of dis dumb taufik hu won.. i lost 90 cents.. haha! =X i actually made a bet with stanley(moi classmate) bout de winner of sg idol.. so now dat taufik has won.. i lost moi cup of ribena.. :p lolx~ but seriously.. he might bi able to sing rather well.. but he doesnt have any package at all.. u call dat an IDOL? gimme a break.. since when did singaporeans have such taste.. bahz..
was tokin to my frend bout sg idol.. another 1 hu saes daphne looks like me! wad on earth?! bpm... divine.. brina.. moi cousin.. and more! wtf.. i seriously dun think she looks like me... -_- and i do agree dat maia is hot.. but... not pretty.. hot body yes.. pretty face.. nopez.. dun tink so.. lolx~ ever since i saw celia on sat.. i think she's like a benchmark i set for pretty gers... if u're not prettier den celia.. i dun consider u pretty... loL!!! i really find her pretty... de classy elegant kinda pretty... i like dat kinda pretty.. i like her! =D
been rather moody recently.. due to de bdae issue.. itz alwayz de bdae dat makes me pissed and moody... haiz.. i duno wad to do... so many ppl to please.. i end up pleasin juz everyone but me.. sometimes i juz feel so ripped up.. so torn.... so helpless..........
-someone tell me wad to do-
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